To Sum it Up

I'm back once again! At least, I'll be having some decent post until 2009 ends. Whew! Can't believe this year gone by so fast. I'll sure be missing 09, after all this year brought me tremendous changes in my life that I would surely treasure forever.

But before that, my photo above is just crap. Its just a whimsical and freakish way to say hello and I hope I scared you! Boo! Hahaha. Oh well, I have been tired carrying my long hair and I've finally decided to cut it short, though not too short because it will just emphasize my fugly face, so I just keep it not too short. Actually, that photo above has a function why I've put it in there, its the "before-after" dramatic effect and all that--- CHANGE.

Darwin once said that "Species that survive the most are only those that are adapted to change" and quite frankly Darwin has point in there. Rarely do the habitat change for the species to adapt, usually its the opposite of it. I have been in a carousel ride for almost I can remember. I have been in my highest ups and my lowest downs (redundant, I know! intended for exaggeration), I have experienced being suicidal, like slitting the wrist or the emo-type things, or hanging my head somewhere or even jumping off the cliff or just wishing that the world will just torn to pieces! (believe it or not) and I have experienced the highest forms of joy (though not through alcohol, sex or drugs) and fortunately those experiences honed me to be a person who does not see the world superficially. Though there are times that I am still too childish, spoiled, brat and such a bitch sometimes. hahaha.

I've learned, actually just right now, that I can't push myself onto people. If they don't like me, then fine, I'm very fine with that. To hell with them! hahaha. Anyway, I CAN'T expect for all the people to like me. As long as I'm doing the right thing, in His eyes, there's nothing more I can do about it.

Though I really, deeply, hugely want to be all the things that I'm not, I just don't have it all. I just CAN'T have it all and I greatly understand that. Even though I have been working my ass off for something and still can't have it, I still can understand that. I've cried and be hurt and I can understand that. It's hard to accept all the facts but there's nothing I can do. Right?

I am thinking of deleting my Twitter account or if not deleting it, just leave it there. I have noticed that many people today are communicating through texts, emails, chats, twitter, facebook, fs or any social-networking things (writing on blogs is an exception, its a totally different thing...:p) which really messes things up--- misinterpretation, etc. And I have been really spilling out some things and I am even saying STUPID things on it. Even the senseless and useless moves, I am thinking that I will TWITTER this! and all that and that really sucks.
Nevertheless, I've enjoyed twitting.

Ha!

Before I forgot, there are so many things that I have to be thankful to God on this year and here are some of the gazillion blessings:

1. My sister Ken. I've never been happier in my life and I've never experienced being a super ate until my baby sis came. She has been a devilish angel to us. I LOVE HER!!! Though there are tough times, I'm still thankful that she came. I love you Ken.

2. My still unwavering FAITH on Him. This had been a big highlight on my 09! Faith is the only thing I needed the most during the darkest days of my life. I super love God for His greatness and His kindness. It's unparalleled and incomparable like no other, THANK YOU!

3. My academic achievements. In relation to no.2 I never thought that I would still make it to the DL amidst the torturing Chem and some personal problems. FAITH saved me and HE saved me. I am still out-poured with endless gratitude to YOU!

4. My family and friends. Simply because they are there to give their unrelenting support to me. Though sometimes, there are misunderstandings, that's all right. hahaha. You know that I know, that I'm such a pain in the ass. :)

5. And I'm thankful for 2009. Everything that happened on it and I'll not categorize it whether good or bad. I know that God had every reason why did it happen and I'm thankful.

As you may have probably noticed, I have not listed my New Year's Resolution because as much as possible I'm avoiding promising things that ended up such a blast. As much as I want to, I just can't fulfill all the things that I'm promising so better let it be.

All I wish that in this new year, love will still prosper and peace will still prevail. Hoping for a better world!

P.S. There will be a Blue Moon today! :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!!!!

Conquering the Speed of Light

While I'm typing on the keyboard and jotting down my thoughts on this blog, I am actually very sleepy right now. My body has been working and adjusting by now for this semester. Excited? I hope so, and I think I must be excited and be motivated more or less, inspired. I will having 6 major subjects this semester and that is not a joke. I will be having Compa Ana, Physics and Organic Chem with their respective Lab and Lecture Classes to boot them all, and to make things worse 3 consecutive majors were being taken every Tuesdays and Thursdays. So this is the start of a hellish life, once and for all.

This time, I promised myself that I will not commit once more the same mistake and the same procrastination I had last sem. Experiencing the anxiety and the feeling of "doubt" leaves me physically, mentally and most of all emotionally restless. I even experienced nightmares believe it or not. So as much as possible, I'm making most of my time to be very useful and I might say "productive" so as to avoid cramming and piling up of works, which I totally abhor. Time management is the key, I know but it seems that no matter how hard I try it seems not working.

So, a quick recap first on whats-happened-to-me this week. Happy to see friends and classmates again, excited to meet new professors but not yet ready to welcome stress. First week is quite boring because of the same "reading the syllabus" routine. We even got to watch 2012 during our 4-hrs break, will be writing a review on my multiply if I can write on it. hahaha. So where are we? Oh yes, I've got a good news: Our prof in Organic Chem is Doc Sam! Yehey! hahaha. I really don't know, but it seems that lately, there's something magical in Doc Sam that I was even rejoicing the moment he entered the room and I am not sarcastically saying this one. Though at first there's a part on me that half wants doc sam and the other half doesn't want him still I have learned a lot from him and he unconsciously brought back the things that I forgot to do as a college student--- that learning is spontaneous. We also met Doc Figueroa in our Org Chem Lab, Mam Ramirez on Compa Ana Lab, Mam Tabo on Compa Ana Lec and Sir Al Rey on Physics Lab and Lec and I can say that they were all great professors and I hope that my first impression on them last till the end of semester.


Base on my statistical point of view, I will be having a hard time surviving this semester. First of all, though many people don't really know, I have many obligations to fulfill once I got home. I'm not that typical teenager/adult that once got home, eat, study and hit the sack (though sometimes, I do wish that). I have to baby sit my little sister and to tell you frankly, mamamayat kayo sa kanya. I love my sister, I adore her because she is such a cute little angel that was surprisingly given to my family, that's my responsibility as an ate and I have to accept it wholeheartedly. Another thing is, I have an obligation to fulfill on our church. As a pianist on the choir and attending prayers and worship services, I must do my best in order to fulfill the task that I was assigned to do. Now, to set things straight I am not complaining about all these blabberings, in fact I was very thankful that God has given me responsibilities to hone me as a good person. What I'm trying to say is, I wish there are more than 24 hours in a day and I wish that I could devise a way to surmount the speed of light so I can control time, which is obviously impossible. I'm really a retard. I need lots of prayer and hard work to survive each passing day.

Ha! I need to say goodbye for now and God bless all. :)

Too Thankful!

With my recent fretting about my grade in Chem, finally I have come across Doc Sam and I was really surprised the moment I saw my grade. Angels from heavens sing: "Hallelujah". Finally, finally, finally I can sleep well and breath well. There's like a big chunk of bone stuck on your throat that has been removed! What a great feeling. I bring back all of these to Him. Thank you po! I promise that I'll never have that feeling of anxiety ever again next sem. I really hate that kind of feeling.

I have been trying to make myself busy these days but it seems that all that I'm planning to do won't work out because I always ended up sleeping. I sleep like there's no tomorrow. Well anyway, I'm barely not sleeping during school days, its as if sleeping is a luxury that cannot be bought, my body is only asking some sleep. hahaha.

I have been back with editing and blogging! I have been using Adobe Photoshop CS 4 and I'm still have lots of learning and studying to do. If only my laptop could have a bigger space... can someone buy me an external memory drive 500 GB or 1 TB?! hahaha. Or, or I could buy Macbook 1 TB and enjoy my life. Ooooo! I have been really itching to buy one, but I have to wait until med school.

Honestly right now, I have lots of things that I want but it seems that it could only be possible just by imagining it. "If only I could buy this, or buy that..." "If only I have the infinite money...", too many ifs, that's why I'm really trying hard to study so those "ifs" will turn to reality.

Well, I have to be thankful on what I have right now and have to live a better life.

:)

The World As We Know It

Oh, I'm thinking the first line on how to start this one, but looks like I've got one!

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You know what?
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What?
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I'm like a retard, a minuscule tweet on this humongous, filthy piece of land. I know, many people know that.

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Have you ever felt that wanting to rob Bill Gates' mansion or even fake his account? So you could own lots and lots of money? Shame for me, I didn't get his wits. :)

I'm hopeless. I feel hopeless. I'm emo. I'll slight my wrist, draw some weird eyeliner under my eyes and all the emo-things.


They say that its just a strand of hair between sanity and insanity and I've crossed that line!

Do I look like Audrey Hepburn? Or maybe Megan Fox? Or maybe Heidi Klum? Adriana Lima?
Stop all this sh*ty talks.

Sometimes, doing your best is not enough. I want to be Albert Einstein, i want to have his beliefs, his intelligence but it seems that there's something that hinders me from achieving it like some "ethical distress" thingy.

Gosh! I'm emo again. Can't I talk some "happy" things. Um, i've got lots of suitors!!! hahaha. That's crap actually. That's a happy talk for me. hahaha.

I have been a bum... a real certified bum. I'm like sleeping 4 hours and wake up to eat then sleep again. My headaches.

Do I sound like a retard? If I do sound, then stop reading this nonsense, if otherwise. If you could understand this "things" retarded, insane people do, then thank you.

:)

I'm Back!

Whew! Almost 2 months of no blogging, must have been really engrossing myself from too much academics, which I literally have done. I was like a robot that was programmed to do this and that and to tell you honestly that was really tiring, so tiring. This sem has really left an overtly overwhelming part in me, I have experienced all different kinds emotions-- from excited to being depressed (emo! hahaha with Keisha), to being excessively happy, nervous, anxious, eager, LAZY and all that stuff and semester break is just a breath of fresh air and ah! how could I forget Doc Sam, he's the major highlight of this semester, hahaha! I never thought that chemistry would be soo exciting, fun and stressful with him, of course with Doc Sam's help. :))
Now that is not sarcastic as you may see it, I'm serious about it. Doc Sam is an angel in disguise, though many students CAN'T and some many NOT be able to see this one. He wants his students to learn, to stand up on their own and to THINK, to think really hard that all the juices on brain will be sucked out. hahaha. Nevertheless, I just want to thank Doc Sam for all the learnings, though I'm quite not satisfied with my grades on Chem! But anyway, I have a great feeling that he will still be our prof in Org Chem and I really don't know if I'll be elated? hahaha.

Enough of my blabbering about Doc Sam.

Next sem would be a tough one for us, indeed. Below is my schedule and we've reached the maximum units!

PreRegistration Second Semester, SY 2009 - 2010

Advised Subjects

CourseCode SectCode CourseTitle Units From To Days Room CHEM111k S02 ORGANIC CHEMISTRY LEC 3.00 1000 1130 WF PCH105 CHEM111Lk S02 ORGANIC CHEMISTRY LAB 2.00 1300 1600 TH PCH305/306 FILI103c S02 MASINING NA PAGPAPAHAYAG 3.00 830 1000 WF PCH105 PHED104 S13 TEAM SPORTS 2.00 1300 1500 M ULS PHYS103a S02 MECHANICS AND HEAT LEC 3.00 1300 1600 F PCH106 PHYS103La S02 MECHANICS AND HEAT LAB 1.00 700 1000 M PCH107/108 REED144 S13 SPIRITUALITY OF SOCIAL TRANSFORMATION 3.00 1600 1730 WF PCH105 SOSC106 S11 PHILIPPINE GOVERNMENT & NEW CONSTITUTION 3.00 1600 1730 TH COS102 ZOOL111b S01 COMPARATIVE ANATOMY OF VERTEBRATES LEC 3.00 1000 1130 TH COS102 ZOOL111Lb S01 COMPARATIVE ANATOMY OF VERTEBRATES LAB 2.00 700 1000 TH PCH204/205

Total Units: 25.0 Maximum Units Allowed: 25.00

Cancelled - Subject Cancelled (Prerequisite subject failed or subject already taken)

Available - Subject Available

Plot Schedule

Pre-Registration Completed

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Though I am so looking forward on this one, I still have an angst in terms of my academic status. I still really don't know if I am capable to excelling on this one. I hope, I hope with God's help that I would still be able to excel. Hoo! Anyways, if ever I would not be able to pursue med, I'll be jumping off the clip and be like Bella, waiting for Edward or Jacob or some hot stuff out there to save me and I'll marry him, blah blah blah. hahaha. Now, that would be nice. =)

No! I won't let myself befallen once again into procrastination and excessive laziness. I have done with I have been through with the past and the consequences at stake are too much, I won't let that happen again. God has given me ONE more chance not to commit the "same mistake" I have done before and I humbly and deeply thank Him for that, He's really good.

Ah! I'll promise to make this semester break productive.

1. Read as much as I want! Books! Books! Books! I can't live without them!

2. Driving Lessons! Finally.

3. Clean my room. My room is like a forest where all different forms of life are already accumulating.

4. Sleep! Is there anything more divine?

5. Food, ahh!

6. Movies, I really feel so movie deprived.

7. Be more active in church. =))

8. PIANO!!!! I haven't really been able to touch the keys since who-knows-when and I'm going back to my old pieces.

9. And anything that I could think of...

Thank you and it's nice to be back. :)

Just a Moment

I need to take a break. I am becoming too cynical and pessimistic about things lately. I am lately becoming bitter and afflictive more like of a "What the f*ck do you care?!", something like that and it sounds bad. hahaha. I have been burying myself lately to Ecology and Chem books. I have been working pre-labs and postlabs non-stop and even though I don't have any works to do, I still think of doing something because there's something in me that tells that I should do something and to tell you quite frankly, that's really wierd. I am very much concern with my grades right now because I can't afford to fail at any subject. But looking at what's happening right now, the more I "try" the harder it gets for me to be my best and that really sucks.

I am miss reading books, having a good movie to watch or just spending time with myself. I miss RELAXING. It seems that I need to buy that word "relaxing". I have at least to balance my daily consumption of those freaking so-called "knowledge". Being too scientific gives leaves you to be a total stranger to this world, so I need to have some good literary things to refresh my significance in this world. Haaah! I need to pamper myself with a good book, but how on Pete's sake can I do that? When in fact, I don't have the time to finish reading my major subjects' books. Now that freakin' frustrating.

Well, at least here's blogging, a convenient way to channel my ramblings and mumblings. School is so tiring.

A Thought from a Cynic

WHAT IS THE ESSENCE OF LIFE?

ANSWER:


I DON'T HAVE ANY @#$@#&* IDEA!!!!!!

Settling Our Differences

White is he, black is she.
One room vacant, other is a wreck...
Hitler he maybe, but poor I’m a Jew.
He is Alpha, not me an Omega.
He is the younger one and I’m the older.

We just clash in every countenance life could offer- outlook, opinions, belief, food, money, etc. We were like made to negate each other. We were like opposite poles that will never, never attract each other. I’m not saying this in the full context, of course, times are there when we were like angels, tralalalala just playing and fooling around, mocking each other to every possible way and I love it—and I miss those times. He wants me to be a person that he wants me to be and no matter how I tried to be “someone”, I am not just that. I have been trying to change some faults in me lately, but as I look at it, it seems that this faultiness of mine is the one who haunts me back. I hope I could be enlightened by Hitler and make peace with him already.

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In silence there is reverie,
That could kill.
Paper awaits me in patience.
True joy found at last!

A friend of mine says that I am too “concealed” (malihim in Tagalog). Admittedly yes, but you might be mistaken me hiding a secret dungeon built under my house, catacombs everywhere, where I say chants and light some stuffs and offer human blood to the god of whatever god it may be, or someone who lurks the streets in the night carrying a dagger, stabbing someone who passes by. Nah, though I am in the brink of becoming one ;D. Ok, just kidding. Yes, I have this incessant stream of thoughts that creeps the gray matter in me, sometimes helpful, but many times a nuisance. Of course I can’t blurt out everything that comes to my mind because people think that I am insane, though sanity is the last thing in my mind. My friend, I think still doesn’t know me for sure. He’ll (remains anonymous) never thought that I own a blog, writing sluggish things on it and he’ll never will ever think that in writing I can be freely myself. If only my mind could be at peace sometimes, just like a river flowing smoothly in a river bank, no turmoil just laying there at peace, under the bright shine of the Sun, where green trees surround it and birds. If only life could be Alice in Wonderland, Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty or Jack in the Beanstalk, would life be good?

A Shocking Morning

I checked my e-mail this morning, and I was really shocked, my mouth wide open when I read the news that Michael Jackson died at the age of 50. To tell you frankly, I am not a fan of MJ, in fact the songs that I really know from his are "Heal the World" and "Thriller" only. But reading the tragic news that he died, well even though I'm not a fan, deep down in me I was quite sad about the news. Being part of the music industry for God who knows when, he has become an icon, being regarded as "King of Pop", the world will be never the same without MJ. He suffered from cardiac arrest.

2009, though only halfway of its year, has been an interesting one for everyone of us. Too many signs of I might dare to say "death". There's the influenza A(H1N1) virus, numerous hurricanes, deaths of famous people, etc. etc. The world is just "not" getting better. Yeah, I'm serious. This is not an update just for the sake of updating and I am not here also to have a big impact on this world 'cause that would be too ambitious. Whether someone is reading this blog or not, I'm just saying that if you ever have been an observable one, this world is not getting its best treatment. And sadly, we are the ones who suffer, a lot I might say. What to do?
I, too don't have the slightest idea.

Gnothi Seauton

Gnothi Seauton by all means "Know Thyself". I am reading this book of Eckhart Tolle's A New Earth and I was deeply mesmerized by how sort of a whimsical effect it brought me. I can't say that it brought major changes in my life but it does however causes some shift to my mindset. You may categorize this book to a "self-help" book, but who cares? Everyone needs help. Right now, just before heading to school tomorrow I have to finish this one. The fact is, I am quite proud of myself because I was able to finish 4 books this summer, yay! Kudos for my relentless enthusiastic desire for books. Too bad I won't be able to read more this school year. Anyway, that will even make it more exciting.

I am actually trying to squeeze everything I want to do on this day. Tomorrow is the first day of my life so I have to make the most out of it this day. Good thing is, we don't have classes every Monday so good for me and my body. Here are the things that I've actually able to pull off this summer:

1. A moment ago, I just finished giving my filthy room a major clean-up. I want everything to be prep up before school starts. :)

2. I think, I have done my job as a good and caring big sister for taking care of my baby sis. Waking up really early in the morning, singing nursery rhymes to her, and the list goes on. :))

3. I have once again memorized all the nursery rhymes and even those childish songs from far away, courtesy of my baby sis. Itsy Bitsy Spider, went up the water spout, lalala.

4. I have learned how to Photoshop! Finally, after nights of devoting prayers, I have finally learned it. It was quite amazing the joy Photoshop brought me and the credits I get from the people. Check out my MULTIPLY.

5. I surprisingly made 3 multiply lay-outs from my friends, I owe it to Photoshop a lot! But sad to say, though I want to learn the CSS and Text Pattern, I wasn't able to do so 'cause its like a different language. haha.

6. I manage to read 4 books this summer though the last one is still on pending but I will finish it later. Ken Follett's Pillars, World and Dangerous Fortune and Tolle's A New Earth. Love all those books.

7. Out with my friends. I have been on MOA with Carlota, my bestfriend visiting me in my house and have some movie marathon. Its just wonderful!

8. I also spent some time alone, whether at home or alone watching movies in the cinema. I never thought I'd enjoy it. hahaha.

9. Visit my old piano pieces. Too bad I wasn't able to have my regular piano practice now and my dream of playing Liebestraum in piano seems impossible, at least for now.

10. Time with La Salle people. I am now part of the Biology Program Council in La Salle, so I got to spend 1/8 of my summer in school. I enjoy their company so much.

Tomorrow will be the start of everything. I will be delve once more in stress, pressure and misery. And I won't promise that I will be able to post on this blog regularly. But I will really try. Besides, writing seems to a good way to ESCAPE everything.

We All Have Our Stories

Spending time alone makes you ponder somethings in life, essential things in fact. Its really nice to meet new people from different walks of life, you will never miss a chance to gain something from them. That in the end of the day, you realized how blessed you are in life and dissatisfaction is the last thing on earth you have to worried about. I have learned, yes I have learned that we are all seeking for special attention. We want to feel loved and admired by someone. We want to impress them and leave a mark on them. Its very rewarding but at the end, you would say that its the life that each of us is programmed to do?

Defining the true meaning of life really takes time, it takes lots of experience and we really have to work hard for it. I am not in the right position to explain LIFE right now, 'cause I believe that I am still not halfway of what I am suppose to finish.

The Change

It is not the strongest of the species that survives, nor the most intelligent that survives. It is the one that is the most adaptable to change.
--- Charles Darwin

Darwin has a point when he made this statement. When he voyage in Beagle and made the famous frontier, studying unknown species of different times, he concluded that an organism survives because of changes and those you cannot adopt to it, vanishes.

I will not argue about evolution and creation, that would be too long and skeptics and religious people might discover my blog and haunt me down, put me to dungeons and burn me at stake! And that's the end of my life... haha.

I'm just talking 'bout "change". To be quite really frank, I am afraid of changes. Though I can be flexible and lenient when situation really demands for it, big major changes about anything in particular is my failing. Sure I can embrace "good changes", its the "bad changes" that seems very hard to swallow. Its like you're stuck in the middle century when it is already a modern age, or its like you're still wearing corset when there are already slimmers. Change really puzzles me, just thinking about it sinks me to a void, that there's nothing I could really do to think of any reasons for changes. People change. Environment changes. Cultures change. Opinions change. Love changes. In a nutshell, everything that mankind perceive changes.

Maybe I should follow Darwin's advice and change. A change for the better, to survive and to live.

Photo-shop, Photo-graphy, etc.

The world is just teeming with insolent, rude, impertinent, selfish, stupid, annoying, self-centered, egotistic human beings! But let me tell you, I am a kind of Homo sapiens who doesn't like to fight over the smallest squabbles and stupidities, but right now I am boiling 100 degrees. I have reached my boundary and I can't take it no more. You are trying to unleash my rage and wrathfulness which I seldom show to people, then you will get what you want! I am quite in my leisure and you might be shocked on what I can do. HAHAHA!

Whew! That's just too much. On the brighter side of my life, I am currently distracting myself in editing photos. Luckily after too much delayed I already installed Adobe Photoshop CS4 in my laptop. Mind you Photoshop is not an easy task, I am quite in the phase of reading Dummies for Photoshop because I quite literally suck on it. Before photoshop I edit photos on Picnik and but due to my unquenching demands, I want to do something more professional and decided to be a Photoshopper. Its really complicated but I am really trying to do my best. Lately, I have been fascinated with photography, though I only use pipichuging camera, I really love taking stuffs. I'll swear that if ever I am earning millions and millions of bucks, I will purchase a good one. Oh well, but I think this will pass.


I just want you to show some of my stuffs. They are randoms actually, from Picnik and Photoshop, feel free to criticize, I am willing to bear with it :D

Personally, I really adore this, not that it's my
work but it shows how I want to achieve them.


Taken from The Bean with my dear friend Lota.


Now this one, is my latest work which I really love. That's me
my sister, Ken. SISTER ACT. :D

What do you think eh?
More on my Multiply.
:D

'Cause I had a Bad Day! Lala...

And the song goes on. I loathe this day, full of hatred and bitterness. Sometimes it scares me to be too happy in happy times because I know someday, there will come a day-a day where the world seems to be on your shoulders. My relationship with people seems to be in a turmoil, not that I am wicked or whatsoever, its just that I don't get really along with them. If you would ask me question like who is your friend, I actually have lots of them, but to say who is your true friend- can be counted, yes, literally.

I am a very introvert person and I really don't know if that's an advantage or otherwise. I am not the life of the party. Sadly, sometimes I often leave social gatherings early because I am not just born and fit to be with them. You can call me potato couch, but that's who I am. Gawd! Why do people need to party, can't they have a ball like the old times, no constant noise or whatsoever?
As you might happen to closely analyze, I am so so so way way old fashioned. Like I am stuck in the middle ages or something. Yes, I admit it. I hate parties, I hate noises- that's me, conservative and a very classicist person. Oh well, not really to the point that I wear Middle Age clothes, that would leave me looking like a total idiot!

Give me a good book, coffee and nice music then voila! I cannot ask for more. Can't life just be like that? So plain, simple and happy? Why do we need to squabble over the littlest things and make it a big deal?

Oh too much negativity. I am becoming quite cynical about things in my life, that's scary. I just want to give my deep gratitude to my ever-loving beautiful friend Carlota who somehow make my day at least a meaningful one. I really enjoyed it, so great! The description is so vivid and accurate that I completely give in to it, hahaha. Thanks a lot Lota! You know when to make me happy! :D

I am about to end my journey to the middle ages. World Without End is superb! Pillars or World? Um, can't really decide 'cause both are the best books ever! I never deduced that I could be into with historical novels and reading a thousand pages book. Its a nice, new and refreshing experience. Ending one would be sad. Books are such a fetish! They are magical. Imagine life without them?

Ok, I am still down. But this will pass......

Summer At Punta Fuego

Just had a wonderful summer time in a private resort- Terrazas de Punta Fuega in Batangas. I had fun time with the whole family. Just enjoyed the beach and the pool, albeit I get really tanned. :D

Overview

The Koi Pond.

I also got the chance to refresh my long lost swimming skills and how it feels so good that every muscle in me, from tip to toe literally aches. But honestly, I am not really feeling good. Just started yesterday. Hmm.

The Story of Creation

Ever since, I am always intrigued with this Story of Creation. It is the first story that I ever read, which is of course the first story in the Bible. The Story of Creation marks the dawn of mankind and the birth of all sins. I have been asking myself for a long time, what if Eve did not give in to the serpent's temptation? Would you be alive? Would mankind burst into this vast diversity? Would there be a world as we know today? I sometimes wonder, though I did not really presume that what I'm thinking is a sin or what, but I sometimes doubt if God really "intends" for man to sin. Haha. Really stupid of me, what do you think? Though I'm not really convinced on what I stupidly "assume", its just a dumb thought I think. :D

While browsing some articles in Reader's Digest, March 2009, I stumbled into this article about the Creation. Its a sort of a parody and I was laughing all the way, here's what is says:

.... In the beginning God created heaven and earth. And earth was without form and void.

And God made a circular light in the heavens, and he called it the Sun. And God saw that the light was good.

And the Devil made a smaller light, rectangular in shape, and he called it TV. And the Devil saw that the light was bad.

And God made springs which came out of the ground, oozing fountains of pure, fresh water. And God saw that the water was good.

And the Devil invented fizzy drinks. And saw that the fizzy drinks were bad.

And God said, Let the earth bring forth vegetables, and the herb of the field, that the children may grow up healthy. And it was so.

And the Devil said, Let there be deep-fried potatoes.

And God said, Let the water bring forth 10,000 varieties of fish, that they may provide sustenance for the children.

And the Devil arranged that the fish be smothered in batter, deep fried, and served with deep-fried potatoes.

And God created the cattle of the field, and said, Behold, I have given you every living creature that moveth; to you it shall be for meat.

And the Devil showed how the meat could be minced and turned into burgers, and suggesteth that it be always served with deep-fried potatoes.

And on the seventh day, God rested and asked that his children rest too, and use the day to contemplate the wonders of creation.

And the Devil created the all-day brunch, cartoon TV channels, and Sunday newspapers filled with articles about celebrities, that the minds of the children be filled with rubbish and their bodes filled with yet more deep-fried potatoes.

And God said to the boy, Take the girl and go forth and multiply. And of your seed I shall make a great nation, as numberless as the stars of heavens.

And the Devil invented the computer and recruited 10,000 demons to fill it with online battles and images of top-heavy women. And the boy did part with the girl and did instead cleave to the computer.

And God pointed out to the girl that he had made her with many attractive blandishments which she could use whenever the boy was away from the computer.

And the Devil invented the Nintendo DS Lite so that the boy will be able to take computer games with him wherever he goes.

Now the serpent was more subtle than any of the animals that God had created. And the Devil dud enter into the serpent and cause him to say to the girl and the boy, The tree in the middle of the garden the Lord hath told you not to touch. But I say unto you, if you eat of the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil, your eyes will be opened and you shall be gods.

And the boy and the girl looked at the serpent and said unto him: No thanks. We liketh not fruit. But hast thou any deep-fried potatoes?

And here endeth today's scripture reading. Amen.

And oh, if ever the first man and woman have not committed sin, would you and I stand face to face naked? Just a thought. :D

Nilsen, Beethoven and Morricone

I found this on YouTube, Kurt Nilsen was the first season champ of the Norwegian version of the reality show Pop Idol. In this clip, Kurt Nilsen was the one who sings last with the very distracting teeth, I might say. But my oh my, when he sings, he has the most beautiful voice. They sang "Hallelujah", its only by now that I have appreciated the beauty of the song. I even googled the lyrics.

Hallelujah

heard there was a secret chord
that david played and it pleased the lord
but you don't really care for music, do you
well it goes like this the fourth, the fifth
the minor fall and the major lift
the baffled king composing hallelujah

hallelujah...

well your faith was strong but you needed proof
you saw her bathing on the roof
her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
she tied you to her kitchen chair
she broke your throne and she cut your hair
and from your lips she drew the hallelujah

hallelujah...

baby i've been here before
i've seen this room and i've walked this floor
i used to live alone before i knew you
i've seen your flag on the marble arch
but love is not a victory march
it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah

hallelujah...

well there was a time when you let me know
what's really going on below
but now you never show that to me do you
but remember when i moved in you
and the holy dove was moving too
and every breath we drew was hallelujah

well, maybe there's a god above
but all i've ever learned from love
was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you
it's not a cry that you hear at night
it's not somebody who's seen the light
it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah

hallelujah...

On the other hand, Beethoven never ever fails to entice me with his classical brilliance. Aside of course from Mozart, Liszt, Cage and other notable classical music Einstein, Beethoven is one that I can consider as the best. I watched "Copying Beethoven" on Star Movies and I am so thrilled about the whole movie. I found in YouTube, again, my best part in the movie. As you may have known, Beethoven became quite deaf and in the movie he needed a guide for him to be able to conduct the whole orchestra. It's just sublime, I actually get goosebumps. He played the awesome 9th Symphony. Check it out and see for yourself:


Ennio Morricone, well don't know much anything 'bout him except that he is an Italian composer who have composed many soundtracks of my favorite movies notably, The Legend of 1900 and Cinema Paradiso and he's good, very good.

I have always dreamed of joining the orchestra or if ever I will not be able to join, watching one would be truly delightful. There's something so addicting and supremely narcotic whenever I hear good classical music, its like reaching the peak of the world- unfathomable. I am looking forward to that day, where I can spend my money and travel the world, go to different opera houses or concert halls and just enjoying the moment.

I wonder how many people today of my age wanted the same thing? Carlota and Arnie would definitely go with me, but how about the rest? I hope young ones could see the magic classical music brings, its like the music of God that even though words are not present you could understand the whole meaning just by the melody, it solely speaks for itself. And I think its purely magical and superb that such music was being made, how I wish I could make one.

Airports, Etc.

We just got home from the airport. My brother, leaves to Atlanta for their competition in Robotics. Though I am not discouraging him, but I bet there's a little chance that Philippines will win, but still, it's up to them if they will be good at it.

I just love going to airports, there something in there that gives me butterflies in my stomach. The ambiance is just so great, seeing pilots, stewardess, businessman, foreigners and even ordinary people taking their goodbyes to their love ones, it just leaves me a feeling of longing. Haha. Looks like I'm already missing my brother. Aside from coffee shops, rob mall, my home, I have discovered another haven that I could consider "mine"- airports. It's a place where people come and go, place of tears and joy and a place to enjoy. I really sound very odd, I know. Please bear with it.

Oh! I need a new look for my blog. I really don't like it at all. I am planning to study some CSS (Cascading Style Sheet) but I doubt, I have the will to go through it. :D

I have been thinking lately, I now an incoming college Biology sophomore and after my 4 year course is another chapter of endless studying. My whole life will be dedicated to many medical books and I'm afraid that I might not be able to pursue my medical career. Though I am whole-heartedly dedicated to do this thing, there are still a part of me that already wants to earn some money. Honestly, I can't think of any professions that will suit me besides being a doctor, so I think I'll just have to be patient and determined.

I am not counting my earning when I become a doctor and I am not listing those that I have longed for to buy, like my dream house, my volvo car, etc. haha.

New Post

Howdy everyone! If in fact there is everyone, my blog is soon to be dump and rotten. I haven't been able to post some updates since time immemorial. So many things to tell but I really don't have the guts to tell all, some are tragic and some are stupidity.

Summer is here everyone! And I hate summer. I just hate it- the heat, the beach, the bikinis, etc. just make me sick and all that. This is the time of the year when I get the worst colds and coughs, perspire like a liters of sweat and wish that I could construct a miniature ref that I could stuck myself into. The heat is agonizing, its dreadful.

There's really nothing to do this summer, reading maybe the best way to escape from everything. Ken Folett's Pillars of the Earth is a breathtaking book. I heard this book from Carlota, thought that I will not be able to indulge myself in historical books, but that proves me wrong. I also heard this book from Oprah, one of her top selling books in the Oprah's Book Club. Looks like all the signs are appearing, so I decided to purchase it. :D As far as the story goes right now, with all the 990 pages that this book has, I think I am not at all disappointed that I buy this book. Lota said that the "World Without End" sequel is also good, so I will finish reading it this summer! Yay! I'm so excited.

As many people have noticed, or maybe I am the only who have noticed, I am not really a person who can be the life of the party. In fact, when we had this psychological test with Ma'am Zue, I am quite introvert. Not really quite but totally an introvert, I cherish being alone, not really out-going, though I can enjoy each others company. But most of the time I am quite subdued and timid. If there is one place in this world where I could run from chaos, loudness, assertiveness, vagueness and cruelty from all around, I would definitely go to that place. But I love malls, haha. I am also quite old-fashioned too and maybe that's the reason why many people think that I would not be able to marry! Gawd, like what does got to do with marriage?! Pathetic! :D

Blahh...Blah... Maybe this is enough for the "new post" theme today. I am too overwhelmed to blurt out everything and I am beginning to be egocentric, talking about myself. Promise to post some useful info for everyone. Gawd, I am pathetic. Au revoir!

Of Many Things...

The Biggest Lasallian Human Star

I was indeed very proud to be part of this history. Though the sun's rays almost absorb every h20 from my skin, it was very overwhelming to see such successful attempt.

Lasallian festival week is almost over, back to normal. I have been exposed lately to so many things, particularly when I joind the Medical-Dental Mission in GK Southville. Oh! The intense feeling that I ignites over me to become a doctor has been alive once more! I want to help and to treat people. I want to be the best! I am planning to join Pre-lasallian Medical Society to expose myself to different settings, though very draining and toxic, it's really fulfilling at the end.

I haven't have enough rest lately, I have been waking up very early and sleeping late. I need some rest, I just want to post some updates here.

Ciao!

Animo!

:D

Greed

Greed-- one of the infamous 7 deadly sins and I am in the verge of sinking into one. Greediness, I presume is the result of selfishness and right now I am just going through a hard phase. I easily got frustrated and disappointed when some things in my life don't go as I plan, like the universe is against everything I do. Gawd! Its so depressing. I feel so isolated, dull and stupid and also my relationship with some of friends are also in the brink of disappearance. Am I that bad? Why is it that when Satan mocks you, you are at the lowest point? Damn Satan. That monster or whatever that will be, damn him! Should be put to hell or other than worse than hell!

I must be strong, to put all the temptations and useless stupidity of people around as far away from me as possible. I must be strong, so God help me!

Idealist/Perfectionist

I have discovered just recently how idealistic I am. I want everything to be in order, in pure perfection. As much as possible, everything that I do must be in a state of absoluteness which ends up getting me a little bit frustrated about everything, actually.

Its a sickness, I think which develops from too much critical-thinking and overanalysis about everything that goes around me that leaves me speculating and forming theories that discloses me to be idealist and perfectionist. There are some pros but adversely there's mostly the cons. Usually, I end up disappointed and sorry for myself because it's either I don't have the guts or the universe just don't go along with it.

So when did this started? Just recently actually, occurs everywhere in particular and the variables in my so-called experiment are the humans of different species. I think it has been my hobby ever since to observe people and some seats from La salle offers a good view! But, I know that I cannot pursue this idealistic and perfectionist approach of mine because I, myself, is pouring with flaws and imperfections and mind you I am too far from being perfect.

That's why I felt sometimes different. Like, there's this invisible wall that separates me from the real world to the "other different world of mine". I like living in my world, but sometimes there are things that drove you to the real world and suddenly realize that "your world" is a mere illusion, an ESCAPE from the reality that you tried to run-off ever since. Reality hurts, sometimes. Its the most thing that you want to avoid. It's the one thing that you don't want to face. Maybe I'm just afraid. Scared that I might get hurt again in the end, frightened that I might hurt other people, again. I am just afraid...

Actually, I'm a coward. I'm just in an armor suite of a great, courageous soldier trying to put down everything that gets into his way. But inside, that soldier is a coward, fragile, feeble and irresolute.

But I will still be an idealist/perfectionist. :D

Filipinos Need a "Good Movie. No seriously, a really "Good One"

And when I say "good", I'm not talking about the same-old movie genre that we Filipinos always advertise. The same-old love team, the same-old boring, superficial and very gooey stories. How I wish that Filipinos can make "good stuffs" at least in the field of cinematic approach. Believe me, I have no educational background or whatsoever in the cinema but as a person who loves movie and enjoys a "good" movie, I am quite aware and became open on how movies should affect people's state of mind. This is not so nationalistic but I really enjoy "foreign" movies rather than Pinoy ones. Yes, I must say that there are "few" and "some" noticeable Filipino movies that can I can be proud of, most of them are indies. But sad to say, those films that are even a candidate for the Metro Manila Film Festivals are not that really good. Sure they bring laughter, sure they bring "kilig", sure they bring suspense or thriller but there's no substance in it.

My father hates Filipino movies, but not all of them. One time I asked him, what makes other movies so good that even you watched it for like hundred of times you will not get tired of it? My father says that it's the substance and depth the movie has and I believe him. Good movies have substance, depth that can leave their audience awed with amazement.

Movies can affect us, in fact in many different ways. All we need to do especially to the cinema

tographers that we are portraying a good influence to the movies that we want to inculcate in the minds of the audience.

I had just finished a very good movie. The Story of Emile Zola. Emile Zola is a French writer. All his life, he fought for truth and justice and I think his life until his death is an inspiration to many. His works brought up turmoil in the injustices of the French military army due to its unfair and injustice acts of its officers.

So, who agrees with me?

Who loves foreign movie and who love Pinoy movies more?

This is just a thought.