I waited my mom and dad to go home this 2:00 am and I am so sleepy so I slept at our sofa and then they came but I didn't have the chance to chit-chat with them. Then I woke up at 8:00 there are so many places that we went through. The funny part is that when we are about to distribute the new year's gift to my father's comrade we ride into the army with no roof it is so cute because people are looking at us. And I am so ashamed, but I am more ashamed to myself because I remember when I was young me and my brother used to ride at that cute army jeep without thinking what would other people would think of me, and now.... i am really ashamed becauseI tend to feel quite uneasy whenever people are looking at me.
Then at the practice at the choir, I still notice the uneasiness that I felt with KH, I don't know I really deeply wish that everything between her and the juniors will be alright. I really felt that she is still angry with us and I am still bugging my conscience but not coming to the wedding. I really don't mean, I just forgot that there will be a wedding at the noon and I am still asleep.
And Lyka, said to Ate Karen the thing that AT says or whatever she says to us. That I think she has a point but she delivered it in a wrong sense of manner.

AND I AM DEEPLY SORRY ABOUT THE THINGS THAT HAPPEN TO ME. AND I AM SO SORRY GOD THAT I REPEATEDLY DIDN'T HAVE THE CHANCE TO FULFILL THE DUTY I AM OBLIGED TO DO. PLEASE FORGIVE ME.... I AM DEEPLY SORRY........................:-(

I hate my day yesterday., but first I will narrate the things that happened at our year-end socializing, well it turned out ok except for the rainy part thinggy. I love the performance of the Kabataan because they were so cute and there are good feedbacks from them, of course me and my other friend were very proud because we were the one who arranged and spare my precious times with them. Will the Binhi did well except when we are like statues at the stage because actually there are no choregraphy or actions that accompany that music. But still it is great. The thing that I hated in that part is when Lyka says that "she" thinks that were are influences by bad deeds. I don't know, it is just that "she" didn't has the right to judge anyone of us, and I think it is normal for us like teenagers to do stuffs like that. But overall it was fine.
THen yesterday was the worst, I slept after eating lunch and and woke up at 3:00 pm and gosh, I am a really bad girl, Lyka called me and asked me if I have the chance to go to the Wedding to sing!!!!! My holy.... I really totally absolutely forgot!!!! I didn't really remember that there will be a wedding, then at the church our, pianist was angry to us "juniors" because all of us won't be able to attend!!! There is only 3 of them who attend.
It's ok because it is our fault, but the irritating part is when this so boastful and very proud woman says that if we were about to get married then no one will sing for us. Right that moment I really want to reply on what she says. She is so mean. She thinks she is the most beautiful woman alive on this earth. I really hate her. There is something inside her that I really really don't like, I know that it is bad to say something about your brethren but it is true. I know I am beginning to be jugdemental, but it is only my opinion and I am only saying what I really see and feel about her attitudes. I admit that is she "slight" pretty but hello! what's the use of the that beauty if your attitude is rude. I really hate it when she says that, it seems that if shes saying that she is the most perfect person ever live in this world. I really don't like her. Wish that she will change her attitude.

Mom and Dad went to Baguio and today is the day that they were going home. I learn a lot of things, I learned how to cook (frying only) I am also obliged to wash the dishes. I realized that being a mom is very hard especially if you're children are bad. Am i really that bad? Now my new year's resolution are: Be a loving, good and faithful girl to God and to my family, Do your tungkulin with wholehearted heart and be able to fulfill the obligations that I am up to, Study triple hard! Love my brother and minimize my mocking to him! I will learn not to criticize to much other people, BE GOOD!.

I really wish that everything will be alright.

I hate it, I don't think our performances will be good enough tomorrow to please people. I started my day at 4:00 pm or my busy day should I say, WE are practicing for the year-end socializing and I think the kids are not ready enough. WIll us the binhi, took tons and tons of hours before our recording was finished, if only those stubborn and very naughty guys will cooperate then immediately we will soon finish the recording and one of the president of the committe will not be angry with us. I really hate it!!!!! One person I hate more is ******, well not totally hate but sometimes irritated with, she can't manage, control or even organize us. Plus she can't attend the year end socializing tomorrow because she has a family reunion. Oh for batman's sake. She is the president of our organization and she will not be there to guide us. She was entrusted to fulfill and do whole-heartedly her duties and she will excuse us that she will have a reunion. It only shows that she is not concern about what will happen tomorrow. I think if we spill out, we are not the only one who will receive the shame, but also of course the leader who is entrusted to organize, manage this event. I really wish that she develop her personality. Yes but sometimes, we are kind of on with other things well.

I really wish that the year-end socializing tomorrow will be happy and better......

I've just gotten to bed, and the first thing that popped out from my mind is my dream. A rare dream! I dreamt of Champ!!!! Yes, I am saying with all gratitude and happiness!!!!! I dreamt of him!!!!! Once in a blue moon. HEre is my dream. HIs band,hale, was performing in our school, so at first i didn't have the chance to talk to him and stuffs like that, then guess what? He went to my house and give a rest there, I know, it is just only a dream, but let that dream live at once.Yes with his brother Chino, I really love him, everyone was so envy with me because Champ was able to go to my house, he ate there but the sad part is that he is very quiet you know, no talking and stuffs like that, unlike his brother whom is so talkative, I'd asked their religion hoping that it will be INC but he answered that an ADVENTIST. My whole world shattered at that time, really faithfully hoping that they are INC, but good thing it is just a dream and I know that they are INC. Oh next time i really wanted a dream with us only and alone, Champ and Kim, i really really have a crush on him. He is so handsome.

Well actually it is not just only my dream, the other dream is not totally a dream but somewhat a nightmare. I will not anymore narrate it because I don't like that dream. Later....

Tonight is a night, for us as a family. Right after I got home from a practice where are going to shop for some food. But I thought that mom will go home first, so I have to make myself up and it took a few minutes. What I didn't know is that we will gonna fetch mom at her office and then right on the way at the market. My father lose his patience a little bit and give me a sermon. I taught that my night all the time will be ruined and fortunately not. We were happy! Good thing. We ate lunch and my gosh! I think my diet was once again ruined! I ate soooo much! I know! I just can't help myself. I bought many fruits so I can have healthy skin. I am frustrated and tragically desperated to have a fair and clear skin, just like on my favorite Emmy Rossum. I really really like her, her style because it is so clean, conservative but not totally covered up, her curly hair, are just like mine and I love her smile. She always smile and Most of all I love her voice. I am a very fanatic in soprano and operatic voices just like Charlotte Church, whom today I don't like her image compared before because she is now smoking which really affects her voice and she has already a bad image for me. But still I like the cute Charlotte. Right at this moment, I like emmy more. I really do like her. She is my role model. I wish she will not change unlike Lindsay, Hilary and Charlotte.
I really do wish that my face will be clearer and my body to be a bit slimmer. I really wish that my hair, will suite enough for my face.!!!!! Am I frustrated? :D

I think Internet will be my second best friend. I love it! I already find great and fabolous pics of Emmy Rossum and she is breathaking in those pictures. I really love her curly hair, her body, her styling sense which is clean and classy. Here are some pics:

Yesterday, night! At the church I didn't quite notice that Joselle already came home, the first person I thought about was Lyka because she will be ehemmm...again. Lyka invite to go to Rose Ann's debut party and accidentally I was chosen as one of the 18 wine. 18 wine at the debut? At first I thought that there are no such thing as 18 wine but I learned yesterday that there are such thing. Right now I am bored but I really love listening to the soundtrack of the Phantom of the Opera.

I really like and love Emmy Rossum, ever since I saw her movie as Christine in the beautiful Phantom of the Opera, I already and gradually liked her. The reasons why is that first and foremost I lover her operatic but pop voice, I also love her hair because it's curly just like mine and I love her skin because it is so glowy and healthy. I think she is now my most favorite actress.
Right now, i am trying to achieve how to have a healthy skin, you know away from blemishes and stuffs like that. I really hate it because the spreading of my zits are not in my control. Just drink water and sleep.
You know I really dont' understand myself, I am being so irritated with myself and the people around me especially with my brother. I get easily angry with him for some small reasons. But I will be a good girl, hope so. =D

Atlast after long trials I've successfully opened the website for that FROG! Coz yesterday, my classmates and friends came here at our house to do that dissecting in the unfortunate frog because I own the video cam that will be used in the experiment. It was quite exciting because I will experience once again how to dissect a frog and it is so exciting. Well today suppose to be I will go to Arnie's house but my mother won't allow me because she says that I am too much. Last night I talk to the phone 1 hour with Ara. Oh I miss that girl so much. If only I could go to CRMI and of course my mother won't still allow me.

I am also surprised when I knew that Ron is the new student body president of CRMI. and I know why? Because he has the looks for heaven's sake!!!!
The Pasalamat turned out quitely perfect except the moment when I didn't drop my "abuloy" I feel so haggard with it.

Yesterday and the day before yesterday, my eyes were so swollen up. I cried and cried because of the things i am obliged to do but I think I am so stupid because I didn't fulfill that duty. Last Monday, I am so irritated and I ask my father to tutor me at physics then I text my classmate I she has my Biology notebook, then my father get angry with me because he says that I am not listening on what he is saying and that's the start of one of the worst days of my life. The next day at 4:00am there shall be a practice at the choir for our Pasalamat and Lyka noticed that my eyes were so little and she ask me if I cried then I say yes. That day I am very determined to attend the panata because there will be a practice for the carol fest but very unfortunately I wasn't able to attend because of that stupid traffic. You know the first thing that I hate in Manila?....Traffic! I am very very miserable that day that I felt that the world is in my shoulders. I want to cry so I cry and cry and cry. Two days of crying!
Then on Wednesday, my crying stop and I prayed! and everything is alright. Then we do our practice in the carol fest with some eager faces with us.
And now Thursday we held our Christmas Party. A really happy Christmas Party, I have so many gifts that I received!!!! I love our dance and I love the games. Sometimes Thales are not United, but as shown in this Christmas Party everyone is so happy and satisfied.

I was so relief today, I really thought, yes without any doubt that my grades in Mathamatics will decrease but God is so good and I really love him, it INCREASES! I hate to promise anymore that I will do my best this 3rd grading because there so many hindrance too many, and I don't have the power to conquer them all, and I know that there is only ONE thing that is too powerful that I can do.....PRAY! Praying has been the one of the biggest factor why I can be able to push through with this life and first of course is being an Iglesia ni Cristo.And today we bought the clothes for my Christmas party. I don't know what will happen tomorrow, just I will do my best to be a good girl.

I love Him! I really really love Him! O! I supposed a guy or something, nah! I love God, for giving all that i prayed for, like making the Pasalamat ng Kabataan truimphant, I really thank him, because I was so nervous because I will lead some of them, but I know He is there to guide me and I really thank Him.
I think it's ok for me that I wasn't able to go to the CAmelot film because first of all, all day my conscience will be bugging me because I didn't go to the Pasalamat and second of all I will see irritating people who just do nothing to make my day or the rest of my day really miserable and irritating. I think I've made a right decision that I should go to the Pasalamat instead to the Camelot thinggy! I really hate it when some people makes my day really bad, last thursday I am so irritated with one of my classmate, I will not mention her name because she may track down this blog, she says to us that they bought a gift from one of my teachers and I ask what is it? Then she boastfully, cruelly and irritatibly says that It's none of my business because I am not the teacher that she will be given that gift, but the worst part is that she will say it to my friend! HOrrible right? I really, really really hate her that day. She always being that kind, when will be the day that she will realize that all the things that she is saying sometimes hurts others feeling. Well I haven't mention that she is one of the members of our group. and I think she is not already happy being with us, instead joining the other group and that one guy. You know? I don't really understand why I felt that she is so far from us. One time at the cafeteria I was late in eating with my friends because I've distributed the card for the Teachers day and the moment I went to the cafeteria, I thougt she was not there because she is not sitting beside us, instead I saw her in the other "group" sitting with them, hello? as if we were not there. Then one of my friend mentioned also that she is getting far away from us then one of my friend says that she is getting into the adolescent period and likes already to talk to the crushes. We admit that we don't have crushes espcially in our school, and especially me in our classroom, helo? Maybe they say that she wants to talk about crushes or stuffs like that! GIRL TALK! And I realize that if she doesn't want to be with us anymore that's fine with me, I feel more comfortable accompanying friends who are not just go with us because "SHE HAS TO" i like to go with a friend because"SHE WANTS TO". I will feel more of a friend If i know what my friend will make her feel happy. SO I am letting go........maybe......

Huh!!!!! TOday is teachers day so good thing that we do not have classes. I hate whta happened yesterday, looks like Colds is not getting better. I don't know what is happening to Karren, i think she is far from us. I don't know she always wants to join Julie, or Jef. I hate it yesterday because there is a misunderstood, actually we shall have a christmas party that will be happening to my house, unfortunately Meryl was not allowed by her mother to join and Mary Joy says that she will nt come if Meryl will not come. So Aimee Gets a bit angry and the rest is history. Fortunately the thing that happen already settle down.
But a good thing also happen, yesterday we have a program about the teachers day and we are there to present a song for them "AT THE STAGE". Yes at the stage in front of all the Mascians. They like it! THey like the song! ANd it really feels good that when you are singing there people whose clapping for us. I love it.! And add to it, I looked at my horoscope in libre later that event and in my love life says that my ex will come and I can never hide on him. Then when Eljohn and I already went to the 3rd and to ask one of the third if he will be teaching us and went down to the lobby, I saw Mark Lim, see my horoscope is true!!!! But I am shocked because he has a new hairstyle. Oh but for me that's fine.

We have no classes today because of the palarong maynilan, I realize that there some advantages that you are studying in Manila right?
Yesterday, I cried because of my stubborness again, I feel so bad.
Yesterday was our long test in Geometry and the supply of my ATP in my body is really had worn out, so we had to go to the canteen and eat!

Singing:Think of Me.
Think of Me
CHRISTINE
Think of me,
Think of me fondly
When we've said goodbye
Remember me once in awhile.
Please promise me you'll try.
When you find that once again you long to take your heart back and be free
If you ever find a moment
Spare a thought for me!
We never said our love was evergreen
Or as enchanting as the sea
But if you can still remember stop and think of me!
Think of all the things we've shared and seen
Don't think about the way things might have been
Think of me
Think of me waking silent and resigned.
Imagine me trying too hard to put you from my mind.
Recall those days
look back on all those times.
Think of the things we'll never do.
There will never be a day when I won't think of you

RAOUL
Can it be?
Can it be Christine?
Bravo!
Long ago,
It seemed so long ago
How young and innocent we were
She may not remember me,
But I remember...
CHRISTINE
Flowers fade
The fruits of summer fade
They have their season
So do we.
But please promise me that sometimes
You will think ah... of me!

This is Emmy Rossum, the lead actress in the oh so beautiful Phantom of the Opera, I like her voice, well actually I am obsessed in the Phantom of the Opera, I just like and love it. I don't I think it is because of my passion in music, I just can't help, The songs are in my head.