A Long Hibernation

Currently Listening to: Daisukidayo- Ai Otsuka
My shifting on music genre is quite complicated and quite influenced by people I am with. From listening to classical music, which was my main specialty because playing classical piano is a must, from listening to alternative rock which Dawnavie always insist me to download an alt song everytime we meet at school, on listening to J-pop and K-pop because of Majo, on listening to OPM musics because of Elaine and other things like that. But it's great because I am able to find and explore different kinds of music, not just sticking only on one type. I thought that I will hate alternative rock but I was very wrong. My playlist is dominated with alternative rock and easy listening songs, which really fits all my mood, from happy to sad, from jolly to melancholy. haha.
Maybe you're wondering what took me so long to update my blog. Well I am here already typing all the things that happened to me since I have my last update. At first, the sched of section Roentgen is a blast! I hate it! While other 4th year section are on their way home, here we are still at school because we have classes until 6pm! Come on man! 7 am to 6pm? I thought that I will escape that unfortunate thing because that was like my sched on my 3rd year and still the same thing will happen to me this 4th year. Hmp...Masci really likes to see me having hard time! haha...But I think it's good for now, because we already have a 5 o clock dismissal. We will go home during Thursdays. Why is it an advantage to me? Because I will not anymore cram about choir's practice in the church. At least I will be able to ride the bus without any cramness because I'll tell you, if ever I have a sickness like nervous breakdown, maybe I am dead long time ago. Of all the nervousness I've encountered, man, I must be dead. Nervous everytime I go to school, nervous in having a recital, nervous in everything. So good thing I don't have any nervous breakdowns...haha

How about that special feeling? Remember last post I have said that I am feeling a strange feeling? haha...it's just a stupid feeling, and everytime I remember how stupid it was I want to laugh to death so hard...haha...I am wrong...definitely wrong...Muntik na ako doon...haha..but I survive...I didn't fall! haha...It's hard to fall, you end up crying. So it's just stupidity...Never mind that post.

I am having a hard time comprehending those sickly finding the equation for the 3 bisector angle in Analytic Geometry...it's math you know?! hahaha...Looks like my mind is always asleep everytime I step foot at M21 Class: Analytic Geom Teacher: ***. **** Time: 1:00-2:00pm (Wow! Sarap matulog). Never mind the teacher, it just that I really have to drink a gallon of coffee just to not fall asleep in that class, the teacher is good, but there's something wrong. it is not that she is talking to the black board but the time is really wrong. I really hoped that major subjects will be at morning schedule, so our minds will be fresh. haizzz.... But I will not give up math! I will fight till the end!!!! haha...!!!! I dare you math!!!!
hehe...sana nga magawa ko yan.

I was so happy yesterday because even though I got a very low score in math, Carlota is there to cheer me up...She gave a portrait in Paris! haha...It's really cute. The camera is out of battery so maybe the picture will be posted next time. I've always dreamed myself walking through the streets of Paris, just to walk in Paris will make me the happiest person ever lived! It's so touching because Carlota remembered me haha...Aral tayo French sa summer ha?

Life is really tough always, there's nothing perfect. Dana and I have a conversation, knowing somethings about her, and I realized how fortunate and lucky i am, not just she was not lucky, but I've realized that complaining about things that happen to me is bad because, I am not the one who really suffered a lot. I always say why my life is cruel.... But realizing those things, makes me feel bad.

Paris in Jail

Currently Listening:I don't need a Man- PCD

Haha...This music video is so funny. She really looks like Paris Hilton, and I like it when the cop was chasing after her...haha!

Makes Me Wonder

Currently Listening: What Makes you Stay-Deana Carter
A week of haggardousness, yesterday my stomach was aching so hard...my ulcer is getting worse...haha. Masci held a Club Fair today, though was not so grand, I think it's first time that Masci held such thing. I joined the Techno Club, the Research Club, the Nihonggo Club. I have stamps on my arms to verify that I am now a member of the club, Christine just stamped me as a member of the Pion Club (Physics) because Pion Club is a desserted place....haha.

What makes me wonder is that, I am not sure about my feelings...I can't say that I am falling, but I can also say that I am falling...Falling for what? I dunno! It's complicated right now...To whom am I falling? I do not know also! When am I falling? That I know... I am falling sooner or later. A feeling that makes you wonder.

What is Angle of Inclination??? Oh C'mon!

Currently Listening to: Hit 94.7
Initium Sapientiae- Beginning of Wisdom
It's Tuesday...a happy day, first because our dismissal time from school is 5pm and I will go to church again to held the tuesday panata. It such a good thing that we held panata every tuesday...it really helps.
So, what's about that angle of inclination? and that Oh C'mon thing? Well will having Analytic Geom, we have a surprised graded recitation....and come on, looks like I am the only one who has the hardest and not prepared question...what is angle of inclination? Some of my classmates have those computations, and I am reciting orally what is angle of inclination. I know that we have discussed this thing, but I didn't expect that it would be the question that would be asked for me...Unfortunately, although I'm too stupid not to answer the question at least I still have the chance to be able to answer. Now...it's computing not definingthe Angle of Inclination... and I got it.hahaha
I have a stomach ache in Physics...I just don't know, my ulcer attacked again...due to over-eating haha...well I have to watch out on everything I'm eating.
Bye

Uhm...

Currently Listening to: Ugly Girl- Fiona Apple
Posting from now on will be a hard thing for me to do, because I won't be able to sneak out and type stuffs here at my blog, because of my schedule which really sucks. Roentgen still have stupid schedule, imagine my only 5 o clock dismissal is only Tuesdays and the rest will be 6 and fridays will be 3 instead of 2:20. Kainis talaga. I thought that my schedule this fourth year will be a bit spacious kim-friendly but hindi ganon ang nangyari. Anyways, I can do nothing about it, I guess I have to stay just the way it was intended. I never know, maybe something will better will come my way.

The 2nd week of classes is a bit exhausting, I've slept 12:30-1:00 am straight from Tuesday to Friday, I don't know, maybe I'm just the dumb one whose sleeping this late. Going to church and commuting from school, I think if you are in my position who will give up and hope that you will die soon. I've experienced that. haha...I just want to jump off the cliff and say goodbye to this world. So eating will be the best remedy for my tired body. But I am on a diet so I can't eat. But I have to eat because I've read that when you didn't complete the regular 8 hours sleep "daily"...take note "daily" you tend to consume large amount of foods for your body. Stress makes you want to eat more. Hay! Looks like having a diet will be a big no no for me. And due to my excessive sleepless nights, research also say that your immune system will be defenseless and tend to be sick. And that's what happened to me, although I am not sick, lying on bed, I have a nasty cold. So nasty that it hinders me to do things I wanna do. What can I do? I can't avoid sleeping late, even if I avoid it, I will never go to school anymore because I have no assignments. So, as much as possible to all people in the earth, avoid being stress! Also, I am overdozed by intake of caffeine, which is my mate when I want to sleep so so so late.
My father have just passed my application form for UpCat and I will held my test at Malcolm Hall (College of Law). *nervous*
Bye!

Thank God for Yesterday

Currently Listening:Like a Star- Corrine Bailey Rae
I thought my day yesterday will be a disastrous day because I have a misunderstanding with one of my friends. It's so frustrating and depressing. Thinking that I will held my recital on that day and someone was angry to me, so I thought it will be disastrous. But God really finds a way to work things out, He knows whats the best so, my day turns out to be fine, happy and contented. I've successfully finished my recital and Joselle came, I thought she will never come. And it adds to my nervousness but, anyways, I think I did my best on stage. Here are some pics:

My dad, Me and Koks waiting for our turns.

With my mentor...=)
Ang gitarista kong kapatid...pwede nang mangharana...haha

Eto ako...feeling feelingan...haha

Josh, Me and bro...

With my Certificate...

Josh and Me

Learn to Forgive yourself... Learn to forgive others...then Happiness and Contentment Comes.....Gradually...

Currently Listening: Blue Eyes- Garden State
Bad feelings just fade away. and I want to say sorry to those person that I don't want to hurt. Sorry for being immature, sorry for not thinking possibilities why that happened, sorry for being sensitive, I thought that I am right, that I overcome my anger, but no...I let my anger overcome me, typing words in this blog that make other people hurt. I don't want to hurt them intentionally, believe me it is "unintentionally" done, like what I've said I am not perfect. I am glad that we already did talked, making things clear and arranging things, though it will take time to regain what we have before, I am still greatful for everything. I just want you to remember that I am your friend, and a friend doesn't want her friend to feel alone, especially if we have been with many laughters and cryings. I will do anything. I never regret that I met you. Instead I am very thankful because, sometimes when I am lonely, you make me smile...then turns to laughter....then turns into a loud laughter...and suddenly I forgot my problems. I didn't regret everything because I've experienced new things in life and I've seen many things in life that I didn't expect to see, you contributed to open my mind on what's life really is, that we cannot insist what we really want, that life is not just living in luxury, sitting in front of the TV and eating whatever you want to eat, life is simple on the outside but so complicated and tricky in the inside. Don't feel down about yourself: "Tell your hear that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is the second's encouter with God and with eternity." Failure is the best thing to shape up your personality. Failure teaches you how to be strong. Failure leads you to your dreams and failure leads you to God. I know that failure is a scary word, I also fear failure, failure in studies, friends, family, failure in everything. We can't ran out from failure it's in the nature. I don't want to fail, of course, but once you overcome that failure, you'll see that you became stronger than before. Feeling down about yourself is a natural thing to feel, but it's a big no no. God made you, in a special way, in a special way that no other people can surpass. You are unique. You make people happy and that is- I think that best trait a person can possess. I wish I can do that to other people as well. We all have flaws, because flaws makes life fun. Perfect is boring.
I just want you to know, how deeply sorry I am for things I've said in this blog before, and I want you to remember than no matter what, I will still be your friend, need help? Call me. I am always here. Whether I am smiling, crying, frowning or gloomy, don't hesitate to call me. I've treated you as a friend and I will treat you a friend. I accept people who comes to my life, I accept who they are and I don't care what other people think of them, because for once in my life, I've met a person who brings smile on people's faces. You are my friend, I hope that you are like that to me too. I am sorry. Thanks for the memories I've had with you. Take care and don't forget to pray. Prayers fade problems. At least you don't forget me.