My Hands are Tortured!
Manhid na ang kamay ko!!! Walang awang pinaslang ang mga kamay ko ng mga tikladong ng piano at ng organ. Napaikot-ikot na ang mga buto ng kamay sa kakatugtog para sa recital at pagpaparktis para sa organ sa kapilya... Talagang manhid na ang kamay ko. Ang hirap kasi ng tutugtugin ko eh... and take note and dami pa, sa recital ako tutugtog ng 'Lupang Hinirang' tapos "climb every mountain" tapos "A Comme Amour" tapos "Flight of the Bumblebee" siguro ito flight of the bumblebee na ang pinakamadugong piyesa na matutugtog ko. Sapagkat sa pagtutugtog ko nito halos nagkakanda buhul-buhol na ang mga ugat ko sa kamay... Masyado bang exaggerated? Eh totoo naman eh. Sana makaya pa ng aking kaawa-awang kamay. Kahapon pala sinamahan ko si Lyka sa UP, magtetest kasi siya, binigyan siya ng form at nakita ko yung mga courses. Balak ko sana Bio eh meron naman pala lahat ng branch ng Up and nakita ko sa UP Diliman course sa Music. Feel ko ring magtake... Anyway... naaawa talaga ako sa kamay ko.... huhuhu... kaawa-awang kamay... Tortured na!

Everyday is a 'Miracle'

I got the title from one of Albert Einstein's quotes about life: "There are two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle." I got very inspired at this thought, I, sometimes thought that everything that happens to me, well not just only to me, but everybody else in this world is nothing but merely curse of God which was because of our sins. Often, when life gets so dark, we are searching for light, many people including me can't "always" see the world as a great miracle. By just looking around our environment and the immoralities that people have done, who will say that this world is such a "great miracle". I am studying in Manila and I have witnessed all the world corruptions and mediocrity. Their selfishness has turned them to a greedy person that they will risk everything for the sake of "money". You can't say that there are still miracles when you see the street children knocking at your car's window, begging for money and there is no miracle when politicians find it hard to realize that they must "STOP" arguing about stupidities that even non-educated people can't understand. They must lend their ears to those poor people that needs their help. Like non-educated people or poor people, I must say, they did not have the means to have themselves study in a private school or even at public schools. How can we say that Philippines is a "good" country when looking closely they will see immoralities and undisciplined people. Don't they realize that having poor people educated can even help them solving their problems in our country...
But at some instances looking out the window you would see the beautiful scenery, like crystal blue water, mountain tops radiating at the top of the heavens, tall waterfalls falling down the mountains, morning dew that you will see the moment you wake up- well that what's we call "miracle". I don't know exactly what "miracle" means, some says that "miracle" was from God. Maybe someday I will realize that "miracle" would be for "everything".

Pumapatak Nanaman ang Ulan sa Bubong ng Bahay

Raining season comes in such unexpected day. Like right now, in the middle of the sunny summer, rain will suddenly pour down from the sky and makes everyone feeling sleepy. Speaking of sleepiness, rain makes me want to stay at bed for such an hours, my regular wake up time was 8-9 now I woke up at 12p.m.! Imagine that, the world is so busy doing their own business and I am lying there, dreaming of such nonsense. I really hate myslef when I woke up at such time, I am so pathetic.

Guilty

Naguiguilty ako sa sarili ko ngayon, sobrang tamad ko na!!!! What's happening to me, well gusto ko lang naman bumawi this vacation para sa 3rd year, full energy pero naguiguilty pa rin ako sa sarili ko kasi, basta naawa ako kina mama and dada, sila trabaho ng trabaho pero ako nakatunganga lang sa computer.. Magtrabaho rin kaya ako? hehe joke lang. Pero actually my pinagkakaabalahan din naman ako eh.. Yung sa piano ko, malapit na recital ko kaya dapat na akong magprktis ng magprkts, pero infernes nakakapagod ang Flight of the Bumblebee, sakit sa kamay, parang natutwist. Pero kaya naman.
May na, at navivibes ka na na malapit na ang kinatatakuta kong araw... Ang Pasukan!!! Wala lang hindi na ako masyadong nervous dahil alam kong mahihirapan ulit ako kaya ok lang...
Puro ako download ng songs ngayon, ang cute nga ng mga nadownload ko, kung gusto nio punta kau http://blumagic.multiply.com. Tulad ng Don't go Breakin my Heart and Somebody to Love.. Cute ng kanta nakakarelate ako...

Don't Go Breakin my Heart

Don't go breaking my heart
I couldn't if I tried
Honey if I get restless
Baby you're not that kind


Don't go breaking my heart
You take the weight off me
Honey when you knock on my door
I gave you my key


Nobody knows it
When I was down
I was your clown
Nobody knows it
Right from the start
I gave you my heart
I gave you my heart


So don't go breaking my heart
I won't go breaking your heart
Don't go breaking my heart


And nobody told us
`Cause nobody showed us
And now it's up to us babe
I think we can make it


So don't misunderstand me
You put the light in my life
You put the sparks to the flame
I've got your heart in my sights

Somebody to Love

Can anybody find me somebody to love
Ooh, each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
(Take a look at yourself) Take a look in the mirror and cry (and cry)
Lord what you're doing to me (yeah yeah)
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief, Lord!
Somebody (somebody) ooh somebody (somebody)
Can anybody find me somebody to love ?


Yeah
I work hard (he works hard) every day of my life
I work till I ache in my bones
At the end (at the end of the day)
I take home my hard earned pay all on my own
I get down (down) on my knees (knees)
And I start to pray
Till the tears run down from my eyes
Lord somebody (somebody), ooh somebody
(Please) Can anybody find me somebody to love ?


(He works hard)
Everyday (everyday) - I try and I try and I try
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm going crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Ah, got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe in
Yeah yeah yeah yeah


Oh Lord
Ooh somebody - ooh somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love ?
(Can anybody find me someone to love)


Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat (You just keep losing and losing)
I'm OK, I'm alright (he's alright - he's alright)
I ain't gonna face no defeat (yeah yeah)
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
One day (someday) I'm gonna be free, Lord!


Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love love love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love somebody somebody somebody somebody
Somebody find me
Somebody find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love ?



(Find me somebody to love)
Ooh
(Find me somebody to love)
Find me somebody, somebody (find me somebody to love) somebody, somebody to love
(Find me somebody to love)
Find me, find me, find me, find me, find me
Ooh - somebody to love
(Find me somebody to love)
Ooh
(Find me somebody to love)
Find me, find me, find me somebody to love
(Find me somebody to love)
Anybody, anywhere, anybody find me somebody to love love love!
Wooo somebody find me, find me love

It's hard for them to Realize

Wala akong magawa, batong-bato na ako dito sa bahay. Bakit ganon kung kelan wala ka nang magawa at nasa bahay ka na yun ang moment na gusto mong marami kang gawin at kung nasa school ka nanaman, hay naku pagpasok ko pa lang gusto ko ng umuwi. I know I have responsibilities pa para sa piano pero hindi naman pwede all day akong mag-piano noh.
Naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil isa akong babaeng hindi malaman kung ano ang gusto sa buhay.. I wanna be complete... hehehe pang-commercial, wala lang talaga akong magawa...

So ang malaking tanong ano ang kinalaman ng title ko sa sinulat ko ngayon.. Wierd no?

Alurring Paradise....

Day 1: Ship Trip
We arrived at Manila Port at around 5:00 pm and we're very excited.. Actually ako lang ang excited dahil medyo may gulo... Long story that this blog will never carry... After that medyo ok lang naman, nothing exciting happens.... Except for the breathless view that I saw when I take a look out of the window... Here are some pictures...

Lovely... isn't it?

Sunrise at the cruise...
Then after a 11-hour waiting at the cruise, we finally saw the islands of Palawan...

After that, naghanap muna kami ng kapilya para alam mo na syempre... iba na... hehehe joke lang... Tapos dapat magpapaupgrade kami ng barko pero unfortunately, wala... Tapos non, punta na kami sa aming lodge... Napaka-homy ng feeling and it owns by an expert diver Miss Margaret "Majika" Palanca...

That's her!
Masyado na kaming naging excited kaya ready to go na, nagkaroon kami ng mga tour guides and our first stop, Barracuda Lake... ang lalim, as in, pamatay!

Going to the Lake...

Lam nio ba, na before na makapunta ka sa lake you will cross a basta isa syang parang mga bato na aakyatin mo tapos bababa ka, then lake na siya.

Daddy!



Here are other pics, pumunta rin kami ng Calachuchi resort, Twin Lagoon na kung saan ako nasugatan, Coral garden, Ship Wreck(kaya lang wala me pics kasi nasa ilalim yun ng tubig), sa mangrove trees and we went kayaking... It's really fun.




At the Twin Lagoon

going through the tunnel


Me behind the Mangrove Trees




Kayak!




Moment ni Mommu to!

View from the top of the cave