I Looove Paris!

You Belong in Paris

Stylish and expressive, you were meant for Paris. The art, the fashion, the wine! Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park... You'll love living in the most chic place on earth.

What City Do You Belong In?

If there will be a summer getaway that will be perfect for me, I would desperately choose Paris. I remember since I was in my tender age, Arnie and I always dreamt in going Paris together, shopping together, drinking coffee near Eiffel Tower. Lol. It's just childhood dreams that still lives up onto me until now. I promised myself that if I became a successful doctor and have enough money to buy a plane ticket and a right pocket money, I would definitely go to Paris, either alone or with someone. Plane tickets nowadays, are really expensive, especially roundtrips. So, I think I should collect money from now on and not be to extravagant about it.


So tomorrow, will be the enrollment at school and I'm not that excited. I will be officially enrolled as 4th year student at Masci, and to tell you frankly, I don't want to leave high school. I am afraid on going to college, because I think life will be even more complicated. So Godspeed to all. Bye

Something's Wrong With me...

Currently Listening- Why? By Avril Lavigne
...because, I draw. I draw so I think there's something that really in my mind, I just don't know what is that thing. Because, when I draw, there's really something wrong. But the strange thing is that I can't decipher what is wrong with me! Gosh...Maybe I am now a crazy person.

Anyways, many people are shocked and soon will be shocked by the change the happened to me. haha...I just said that I will take care of that, then why am I exposing it to harsh chemicals that may cause damage?Ahah! I know, what's wrong with me. I don't stick to my word! nah...but I feel that's not wrong with me. I think I'm going crazy.

Today is the first day of my review in Academic One for the UPcat test, dad accompany me. The heck! We really left our house so early, at around 5:45 am, but I think that's ok because it's monday and it is hard to get in the bus. But we weren't rode the bus, instead we ride a taxi so we could sit down, and my gosh...I guess this is my lucky day, they is this cute guy, one person apart from me and a also cute guy sitting right beside me. I guess God, gives me encouragement for me really work hard for the review. So I thank Him! haha. Then, we rode a jeep for us to go to La Salle and to Mcdo were we ate our breakfast then off we go to St. Scho. I was quite nervous entering the gates of the school, then I met my classmates, mostly Darwin people. We were guided to a room, for an orientation. We've waited long, it should suppose to start at 8:00 am but it started after 30 minutes, and the orientation last up to 10 am. I am really sleepy and feeling drowsy at that time. Good thing, Zuni was right beside me, so I won't be bored...haha.
Well, as usual they were shocked by what they saw. haha
Then we headed to our room, Rm. 307, and surprise! DIAGNOSTIC TEST! to welcome our first day at the review. Sir Arvie is kind and take note, super intelligent because he is consistent being on the top section in Masci! haha... I wished that I was in that place. So the test is 175 item, consisting of English, Math, Sci, Reading COmprehesion and Logical Reasoning, those test are ok except for the usual-oh-so-hard subject! Math! haha...But there are some formulas that I already forgot in Chem, but overall Science is ok! We were joined by other school like Makati Sci, Mandaluyong Sci, St. Scho and Paco Catholic. I hope that we will be able to meet new friends. But my priority is to do better in this review for me to be ready for the Upcat test.
While I am listening to the orientation about UP, I saw that my course BS Bio is a quota course and also my second choice which is BS Chem, Sir Arvie says that there are over 70,000 entrance examiness registering in UP and only 7000! has the ability to pass...My gosh! that reality adds up to my nervousness, but I guess even though forbidden, I will take test in La Salle, ATeneo and UST.

I guess I should be serious by now. No, wrong I should have been serious in the past, so I didn't regret many things because I'm telling you, you can't rewind the time and correct things just as easy. I wish, I put more effort for the last 3 years in studying at Masci and I wish I didn't waste my time, being lazy and doing unneccesary things. But, what could I do? Past is past and now, I have to start planning my future carefully, learning from the past mistakes. Hay! Now I know what's wrong with me... Seriously. I always take things for granted, I am so procrastinated, I didn't think what might happen and the consequences that awaits me at the end and I hate myself but for being like that. I didn't think of people who want s to desperately go to school even though they lack money, while I have the means and I didn't use the blessing for me to do good. I need to start a new life in Masci. A bit lonely because, I am now graduating and an incoming senior. But I guess it's not too late.

Add to my loneliness, I guess it is because it's the month when my grandma died. and I miss her. Love you Lola!

So, I have to change my clothes into a newly washed, fresh, cleaner, more mature clothes than I have because. Because I stink! haha... This clothes I'm wearing last 15 years and I will change this stinking clothes. bwahaha...

I think there's really something going on with me? Do I need to consult a mental doctor now? Am I mentally ill?

Happy.....heureux

Currently Listening: Dawn (Pride and Prejudice OST)- Dario Marianelli

"In vain I have struggled. It will not do. My feelings will
not be repressed. You must allow me to tell you
how ardently I admire
and love you".-Mr. Darcy

"From the very beginning, from the first moment,
I may almost say, of my acquaintance with you,
your manner impressing me with the fullest belief of you arrogance,
your conceit, and your selfish disdain of the feelings of others,
were such as to form that groundwork of disapprobation on which succeeding events have built so immovable a dislikle;
and I had not known you a month before I felt that you were the last man in the world whom I could ever be prevailed on to marry."- Ms. Elizabeth Bennet
Wah! I happy again, after the dreadful and distressed post from the past, my emotional stability is back to normal level and I'm living my life with satisfication, I've realized that even though Joselle and I won't meet in the church at least our school are not that far with each other, in fact it's only walking distance, she's from UpM while I'm at Masci! We can meet up at Rob...haha... I just don't know, maybe I am overly presided by my emotions and I get too lonely without thinking the possible solutions to my problem. haha...

On my first post on January 1, I said something about my New Year's Resolution, that I might broke, well I'm a bit ashamed because I won't be able to stand up to what I've said, but for a "change" maybe that will work.

I am dedicating my time reading the book "Pride and Prejudice", though,I've already watched the Oscar Nominated Film "Pride and prejudice" about a gazzillion times, with Keira Knightley, it seems that the impact that the film brought to me is still worth it. I really love the film how Jane Austen, come up with such a story, which I will be later know because Becoming Jane will be soon out in Cinemas starring Anne Hathaway as Jane Austen. I always imagine Mr. Darcy as cool, gentleman and charming guy. A type of a guy that doesn't "blurt" his feelings out, instead, you can see that he is taking actions for his good intentions. If I were you, I would watch Pride and Prejudice, and mark my word, it's beautiful. I intend to finish reading the book before this month ends because I am forbidden to read novels right now. I just don't know, my mom is so gc! haha...more gc than I am. She says that I should focus first on my review haha...It's so funny that it turns to a heated argument which is one of the reasons me and my mom are always at war. haha... But I'm breaking her rules..and I'm a bad girl. I just can't help reading books, but I don't break my promise that I will have my extra review for this summer. All I want is just to relax, because when school year again comes, I will be a haggard looking homo sapiens again.

I also intend to watch good movies, so I made this list of movies that I will watch, whether it's long time ago or an upcoming movie. I'm such a movie addict. Maybe I will watch:
1. Mr. Bean's Holiday
2. Pan's Labyrinth
3. Becoming Jane
4. Meet the Robinson's
5. Pirates of the Carribiean 3

Oh! and there are pending books that I want to finish because I've even started reading them but I haven't able to finish them and they are the Time Traveller's Wife and the Sin Eater. DON'T TELL MY MOM!

Lonely Mode...as of now and Somewhat Irritated

Currently Listening: Autumn Leaves- Richard Clayderman
At last! I finally have the chance to use the internet, our DSL is malfunctioning. It's that when I always click the internet explorer icon in our deskstop, the DSL always logs out...stupid...I really hate it. But finally, it's working okay and I hope that it will not irritate me no more. Well, nothing much happened to me these past few days, only indulging myself watching tv and surfing the net, but of course, reviewing for UP, I also practice for the torturing piano piece recital this June, entitled "Sonata Pathetique" (First Movement) and I tell you it's a 13 page piano piece.

I just called Joselle yesterday, checking if she was at home because she went to UP Baguio to took her certificate of transfer so she can study at UPM, and I was quite shock when she says that they were packing their things...again. I thought, she will be study permanently in Baguio, but to my shock they will transfer in other locale, together with her family. The friendship that we've shared together, the laughs, the cries and stupid things that we've done...I will really miss them all. I can still remember, how we've met but I can't remember how we've been so close. Maybe God sent her to me, so I can't learn from her. You know, I'm such an undefined person, hard to make decisions and has a complexity of mind, so my friends hardly understands me. I'm an alien, who has been trapped in this imperfect world. I just feel lonely with a mix of being happy...what? Lonely because, one friend will be parted from us again and happy because, she became a good friend to me and to all of us. We shared "everything" actually, and I will miss that "sharing" thing. But's man, that's life...that's the reality of this stupid life...so evil, there will come when we will be apart from the person, whom became so important to us, but I think friendship will be test in this situation, because for me Friendship knows no Distance. Personally speaking that is true, Arnie which has been my bestfriend for almost 10 years, we still keep in touch with each other, though we want to be at the same school this high school, we weren't able because she is studying at Elizabeth Seton and I'm at Masci and maybe this college, we will not have the same course but we promise to still keep in touch, whether through blogging. Check out Arnie's blog, or through text or through phone calls. So,I think my missing mode to Joselle has reduced. haha...

The reason why I am irritated is that because, there's this person, whom I don't know, that person is so I can say not concern in the feelings of other people, that person is somewhat selfish and conceited. God! I hate it when that person is like that, it's just make me wanna say things to that person if I will not be able to control my irritation anymore! Grr...This post is full of misery, lonliness and hatred words....I hate this post! Grrr....Hope that person will change its so irritating and nerve-wracking attitude, hope that that person will realize that he/she is not the only person living in this world and their are full of species that deserve to be peaceful...grrrr...I am so pissed out now!GOd I hate this feeling...

Anyways, stop all the drama and I will show images of encouragement, the 13page Sonata Pathetique and the unrelenting picture of us with Josh...I will miss you!

My Busy Vacation

Currently Listening: Chasing Cars- Snow Patrol

Yesterday morning, I woke up at around 6 am to get ready for school. Not that I have a class, like what I have posted recently in my blog I joined the choir and I'm telling you, it makes you oover exhausted but still it is fun. We were like in the auditorium for almost a day just practicing one song!!!! But it all paid off when we were able to sing the whole song. I thought that Mrs. Carlos is a wicked and mean teacher who will make your lives miserable just like "some" teachers that I have known, but still there's plenty of time for me to know her. I approached her yesterday and said that I will not be able to join the practice today because I have a piano lesson, which I cannot sacrifice. It turned out that she agreed and I was so nervous when I'm telling that to her, think she might say that I must put choir first in my list of priorities, which i cannot do, even if I want to. And when if that instance comes for me to choose: "Church" or "choir". Then no doubt that I will choose my "church" activities. I know that those things will come and will make me think really hard and I have to have a "wise" decision. Altough for now, there's no conflict in schedule, I have to watch out in this incoming school year... I will be dead meat!

So I've realized that a busy vacation is right there waiting for me. But it is a good thing that I've already took my vacation. I have piano lessons during Wednesday, then later on I will have my review for UpCat on St. Scholastica, then the unenduring practice in choir in May!!!, I also went to church for practice in organ and other activities like practicing for the choir competition So, I think that I have to take a deep breath and embrace life as it is. I'm not complaining though, I enjoy doing those things, it's fun and makes me busy from a soon-to-be lousy vacation, but my ULTIMATE GOAL right now is passing UP!!!!! I need...I want...I obssessively...want to pass this university. So, before I forgot I also stack myself with review books, past lessons from 3rd year and other books for me to have a self review whenever I have time to spare... So here comes time-management which I am not really good at. Well, a lot of time I alot my self in Watching T.V, surfing the net and sleeping alot whenever I have spare time. So I have to make a personal schedule at what time will I wake up and do things. Actually, I woke up today at 10:30 am, if it's not for my piano lesson at 12:00 noon, maybe I am still under my pillows dreaming, making my body even bigger!

Before I forgot, I want to say my deepest condelence from the Mascardo family, because Resby, one of my good friend, lost her lolo last Monday. And later on, at 5:00 pm, me and some of my friends, will go to the funeraria and visit her lolo. Honestly, when my lola at the father side died, I wasn't able to go their because I have a sickness... a chicken pox. And I still regret that moment, because it will be the last time that I will saw my beloved lola and still fate doesn't want to. She was close to me and so did she. My mother once told me that she didn't even want a single "fly" (langaw) to land on the surface of my skin! haha... So I really felt bad when I wasn't able to go, but I bet she understand that situation.

Wow! This is a long post. First time. Well, that's all I can narrate. I will head to the bathroom, take a bath and off I head to this busy day! Caio!

I'm Back

Currently Listening: Keep Holding On- Avril Lavigne

At last, after the long, sleepless nights of no blogging in my life, I've finally touched the keyboards of the computer and jolt down the things that happen in my 4- day vacation in Bagiuo. We, left our house at around 4:30 am and arrived at Baguio at around 2:00 pm, so mathematically speaking, we traveled at 9 hrs and 30 minutes... I have Mary Joy to accompany me at our vacation, Elaine wasn't able to go with us, but that's ok. Literally, we slept during our trip.

Actually, going to Bagiuo is not what I'm looking forward every vacation, I want to go to places that are not too crowded. If not only for our house in Bagiuo, maybe we will go there every vacation, but at least I am still fortunate because I am able to visit such places. I think, I've been to Bagiuo for almost 5 or 7 times that I will enumerate to you, the places that most visitors visits....haha..
1. Burnham Park
2. Mines View Park
3. Camp John Hay
4. PMA
5. Riding Park (the horse??)
6. Good Shepherd (to buy foods)
7. SM BAGIUO (kung saan naglipana ang mga gwapong lalaki!!!haha!)

Well, this visit of to Bagiuo was a bit special because it's the first time in our my family's life that we visit Mines View Park without raining so hard. Achievement! and it's our first time that I join my classmate at this trip.
At Sm Baguio, you can see that we are being invaded by Koreans, koreans here, there and everywhere. There's this korean man (not that old) who smiled at my mother!!! Can you believe it??? Well, my mother looks like a bit Korean..haha...Well, looks like at SM Bagiuo is the meeting place of all the cute guys I've seen..haha...That's why I like Baguio...wahaha..
Well, staying at Baguio is not only for boy-hunting...but only to reminisce my past life...did I do great? Or I just let time slipped away without any accomplishments? It's also a time for unwinding and digging memories from the past. I will be an incoming senior at Masci and it seems that my mind is not matured enough for me to fill the expectations that I need to meet. I think, I am not good in time management and handling serious responsibilities and I think that I am too sensitive. I need to improve myself! Well, that's what I thought...
Here are some pics...


First Picture



The sky is the daily bread of the eyes.


Are we not like two volumes of one book?


Families are like fudge... mostly sweet with a few nuts.


The Amen! of Nature is always a flower.


Our task must be to free ourselves . . . by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature and its beauty.

Time to Relax and Unwind

Currently listening: Waiting for the World to Fall by Jars Clay

Well, I just want to say that I may not be able to post for a few days because we will be going somewhere. To Baguio... Although I've been there for almost every vacation, it's been a ritual for our family to go there, I just to know why...I hope that I could feel the cool breeze in the city unlike here at home, it's scorching hot. I'm looking forward for relaxation and enjoyable time while we are staying there. This will be a short update. I still didn't pack my things up. But one thing that I am really worried is that I will not be able to have my "tupad"...hehe...salaysay naman as usual.

Yesterday, I went to school for our practice for the choir and I will tell you...this is a warning...being an Alto is hard...super hard. Well, I just don't know, I think I get used on being a Soprano, because Soprano is way way better and easier to learn than Alto. But despite the hardships, I get to know new friends, co-Altos, haha... they are Rachel, which is also a third year student, Burbank and future Einstein. Then the 3 first year studentsss... hmmm....What's there name? umm...oh yeah...Jessica, Justine and ???....who's that one? I always forgot names...

Anyways, although the practice is energy-absorbing, it is fun and enjoyable, the senior members of the choir came at the middle of our practice because they will sing for an awarding today, I just don't know what awarding is that. So we listened to their practice and I am still struck by the impact of their voices, it is so good. You would not believe a high school student would sing that good. Well, they will not be in the choir this school year anymore because they've already graduated. I hope that we, newbies, would be able to fit in their shoes and continue the glory that they brought to Masci...Cross fingers for us....

So until next time, I promise that I will upload pictures the moment I have my first update from our vacation... I will miss blogging!

Di ba sabi ko "Short update" lang to???

What a Feeling

Feeling of Blessed and Loved by Him
Currently Listening: It's Already Over- Orson

Our santa Cena has just finished today and I am so happy because not only I will be able to take a rest but I receive so much blessings from Him. I cried...my only refuge to let out all my feelings...and I cried again to thank Him for all the things that I received and I want to specifically thank Jesus for his love and compassion for His people, He who burdens the sins of the children of God to erase and free away all the sins that we possess. My feeling is just to light, the feeling that things that I worry about suddenly disappears in my mind. I just love this feeling.

Anyways, it's final I am IV-Roentgen next school year I am "quite" excited. Not overly excited but quite. I just don't feel being excited. Unfortunately, me and my friends in Darwin, are now in different sections and I will miss them...no more copying of assignments, no more gossips...haha.., no more "everything". But my arms are wide open to new circle of friends, and I hope that in Roentgen I will meet wonderful friends like I did in Darwin, I hope that I will not be just their friends but also I can learn and initiate value from them.

Tomorrow, I will go to school because the Masci choir has a meeting. I Am now OFFICIALLY a member of the MSHS CHORALE!!! Yipee! But at first, my mom wouldn't agree because she thought that I might be able to focus and concentrate in my studies. So, I promise that I will do good. A promise is a promise so I must not broke that promise...lots of promises.