Faith

Faith Is my Oxygen

These past few days since the start of January, I had been thinking non-stop about college. Will I pass UPCAT? What if I don't? Should I cry? What school should I take? Am I going to be an out-of-school youth? Darn! Thinking those stuffs makes me crazy. If only you could know my stupidity and all my stupid regrets! I wish that I could playback time and do better on things that I should focus into. Nasa huli talaga ang pagsisisi.I know I should have done better. Now, faith is my ONLY refuge. Only faith can save me and doubt is overtaking everything. I am in a BIG trial. I must BELIEVE, HOPE and have FAITH. FAITH can move mountains.

I have been very sensitive recently maybe due to over-thinking stuffs. I tend to get irritated easily and smile less which is not really like me. I really blame myself for everything, if only I had never been stupid, ignorant and happy-go-lucky, I know I could have been achieving what could I achieve now. And now, I feel as though huli na ang lahat para ituwid ang mga bagay na dapat ituwid. I almost cry everynight, I want to make things straight from now on, I want to prove something and I am afraid because passing UP is the first step that I proved something.

But faith is EVERYTHING. I know that God has a purpose whatever outcomes there maybe. Though I will be disappointed AT FIRST IF EVER I don't pass UP, I know that God knows what's best for me. Besides, why on earth's sake should I doubt, I prayed for this and I am STILL praying.

Thank God for Giving me Time

Quote:Nothing is so dear and precious as time.- French Proverb
I Thank God for giving me enough time,
Time to reflect on all the things I have done in my life,
You know it's great that God shows His love in a different way,
Talking to your mother, going to the mall,
He is everything.
He shows His love for us in every possible way that "people we expect" to do it.

Though my life is a journey and I am not still halfway on my journey, though I sometimes don't want to go on anymore because of the bumps and the bruises I receive all the way, though sometimes there's no light to guide me through the way, that choosing the right path is sometimes a hard decision to make because you have no choice. But there's always a choice, it's only in the matter of thinking. God is always there. Even when the road is dark and dreary He is there. I don't know, I just know he is there. He wants us to learn and go back through time and reminesce His love for us. There are so many wonders from God that we have to realize, the wind, the birds, the chiming of the wind bells, the tv, the clothes, the shoes, the piano, the music.... all the things that we are capable of using today it's all God's creation. No wonder man exploited it. *Sighs*. It's really hard and tiring to be good, but's worth it because you are with Him. You find peace and a sense of tranquility within you when you feel Him, it's like you're floating. Lately, I have been dreaming stuffs about my life, schools, family and friends. I don't know maybe dreams are fortellers of the future. I don't know, I just sometimes see that they happen in a coincendental way I dreamt of them. It's wierd. *Sighs*.

Do I want to be a cook? A doctor? An interior designer? A fashion model? A Physics nobelist? So many dreams yet sometimes I feel that it is only through dreaming that I can achieve those dreams. God is powerful, full of wisdom and He knows what better for us. He loves us. He loves His children. He loves me, He loves you. Don't worry. He is always there.