Faith

Faith Is my Oxygen

These past few days since the start of January, I had been thinking non-stop about college. Will I pass UPCAT? What if I don't? Should I cry? What school should I take? Am I going to be an out-of-school youth? Darn! Thinking those stuffs makes me crazy. If only you could know my stupidity and all my stupid regrets! I wish that I could playback time and do better on things that I should focus into. Nasa huli talaga ang pagsisisi.I know I should have done better. Now, faith is my ONLY refuge. Only faith can save me and doubt is overtaking everything. I am in a BIG trial. I must BELIEVE, HOPE and have FAITH. FAITH can move mountains.

I have been very sensitive recently maybe due to over-thinking stuffs. I tend to get irritated easily and smile less which is not really like me. I really blame myself for everything, if only I had never been stupid, ignorant and happy-go-lucky, I know I could have been achieving what could I achieve now. And now, I feel as though huli na ang lahat para ituwid ang mga bagay na dapat ituwid. I almost cry everynight, I want to make things straight from now on, I want to prove something and I am afraid because passing UP is the first step that I proved something.

But faith is EVERYTHING. I know that God has a purpose whatever outcomes there maybe. Though I will be disappointed AT FIRST IF EVER I don't pass UP, I know that God knows what's best for me. Besides, why on earth's sake should I doubt, I prayed for this and I am STILL praying.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!! HAPPY 2008!

I just woke up from a deep slumber from last night's happy celebration to welcome 2008. I think I slept at around 1:30 am because my tummy aches due to excessive intake of foodssssss haha. My mom cooked so many foods namely: roasted chicken, barbeque, tempura, ham, embutido, grilled fish, macaroni, ube, fruit salad,palutang, what else? I almost forgot some of them.... :]

7:00, yesterday me and my family went to the church for our usual gathering that before a year ends, we will gather together to pray to God, to thank Him for the wonderful year and to ask Him for guidance and protection for another year. I also had the chance to say Happy New Year to my church-friends.

After that, our district minister came to our house to pray for us. It is such a blessing that before the year ends, I know that God will be with us to overcome another tough and exciting year ahead of us. They ate and I get to know Nice, she is such an intelligent and beautiful girl. We even play the piano together...haha!

Then, my cousins and lolo and lola stop by at our house. Hay...It is such a happy moment. Well, we do the usual thing, play and eat. Haha... Then Tita Fely called us and greet us a Happy New Year!!! It is such a surprise.

I called my best friend last night and I greet her also. It's a customary that we greet each other. We have been bestfriend like for 11 YEARS!!!! Sabi nga niya dapat daw nasa world records na kami...haha. It's such a sweet thing that we have been bestfriends from 11 years. I am such greatful because I have found a bestfriend like her. Whenever I have problems, I will not hesitate to call her and she will not hesitate to spend time and listen to my problems. I am so lucky to have her as my bestfriend. I have only one wish for us both, that we will stay as bestfriends for like the infinite years and no matter what happens to both of us, we will stay as BESTFRIENDS!!! Love you bhez.... Take care always... :]

Ah! Before i forgot, last December 30, 2007. The Salinas Choir held its get-together after 7 years!!! haha and I am so lucky because I get the chance to attend and enjoy the party. Foods, games and laughter, no one can replace those moments before the year ends. We had such a blast. We were like kids that we play almost all the "kid-stuff games". The pics were not yet ready to be uploaded so watch out for that. I hope that the next get-together will not be after the next 7 years again! haha....

Last night as I shout 3,2,1 in welcoming New year, I had a sudden urge to cry. I don't know, it is like mix feelings, I am glad because I manage to survive the crucial 2007 and I am a quite nervous to this mysterious 2008. But I know that God will always be with me.... So before I give my list of New year Resolution, let's go back to 2007 and list the things that I will cherish forever:
1. My fight with Majo.
2. My review in Acad1.
3. My senior years---Roentgen.
4. My MSHS chorale memoirs.
5. The UPCAT test!!!
6. Food Trip with my church-friends.
7. My first CAT B-day Bash
8. Masci memories....

My New Year's Resolutions:
1. Be kind and have a controllable temper.
2. Be a good servant and dedicated servant of the Lord.
3. Be a good organist.
4. Study soooper doooper hard.
5. Pray a lot! as in a lot!
6. Karerin na ang pagpipiano!
7. Think before I act.
8. Watch my words.
9. Be optimist!
10. Save money!
11. Have a healthy lifestyle...

It is hard to maintain those new year's resolutions but I will try to keep up. There's only one thing that I will leave you: That this new year only signifies that God is still giving us a chance to be good and return to Him, don't waste this beautiful, exciting and mysterious years and live it at its fullest. Don't let opportunities pass your way and always BE HAPPY!!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!! :] :] :] :] :]