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Howdy everyone! If in fact there is everyone, my blog is soon to be dump and rotten. I haven't been able to post some updates since time immemorial. So many things to tell but I really don't have the guts to tell all, some are tragic and some are stupidity.

Summer is here everyone! And I hate summer. I just hate it- the heat, the beach, the bikinis, etc. just make me sick and all that. This is the time of the year when I get the worst colds and coughs, perspire like a liters of sweat and wish that I could construct a miniature ref that I could stuck myself into. The heat is agonizing, its dreadful.

There's really nothing to do this summer, reading maybe the best way to escape from everything. Ken Folett's Pillars of the Earth is a breathtaking book. I heard this book from Carlota, thought that I will not be able to indulge myself in historical books, but that proves me wrong. I also heard this book from Oprah, one of her top selling books in the Oprah's Book Club. Looks like all the signs are appearing, so I decided to purchase it. :D As far as the story goes right now, with all the 990 pages that this book has, I think I am not at all disappointed that I buy this book. Lota said that the "World Without End" sequel is also good, so I will finish reading it this summer! Yay! I'm so excited.

As many people have noticed, or maybe I am the only who have noticed, I am not really a person who can be the life of the party. In fact, when we had this psychological test with Ma'am Zue, I am quite introvert. Not really quite but totally an introvert, I cherish being alone, not really out-going, though I can enjoy each others company. But most of the time I am quite subdued and timid. If there is one place in this world where I could run from chaos, loudness, assertiveness, vagueness and cruelty from all around, I would definitely go to that place. But I love malls, haha. I am also quite old-fashioned too and maybe that's the reason why many people think that I would not be able to marry! Gawd, like what does got to do with marriage?! Pathetic! :D

Blahh...Blah... Maybe this is enough for the "new post" theme today. I am too overwhelmed to blurt out everything and I am beginning to be egocentric, talking about myself. Promise to post some useful info for everyone. Gawd, I am pathetic. Au revoir!

Of Many Things...

The Biggest Lasallian Human Star

I was indeed very proud to be part of this history. Though the sun's rays almost absorb every h20 from my skin, it was very overwhelming to see such successful attempt.

Lasallian festival week is almost over, back to normal. I have been exposed lately to so many things, particularly when I joind the Medical-Dental Mission in GK Southville. Oh! The intense feeling that I ignites over me to become a doctor has been alive once more! I want to help and to treat people. I want to be the best! I am planning to join Pre-lasallian Medical Society to expose myself to different settings, though very draining and toxic, it's really fulfilling at the end.

I haven't have enough rest lately, I have been waking up very early and sleeping late. I need some rest, I just want to post some updates here.

Ciao!

Animo!

:D

Greed

Greed-- one of the infamous 7 deadly sins and I am in the verge of sinking into one. Greediness, I presume is the result of selfishness and right now I am just going through a hard phase. I easily got frustrated and disappointed when some things in my life don't go as I plan, like the universe is against everything I do. Gawd! Its so depressing. I feel so isolated, dull and stupid and also my relationship with some of friends are also in the brink of disappearance. Am I that bad? Why is it that when Satan mocks you, you are at the lowest point? Damn Satan. That monster or whatever that will be, damn him! Should be put to hell or other than worse than hell!

I must be strong, to put all the temptations and useless stupidity of people around as far away from me as possible. I must be strong, so God help me!

Idealist/Perfectionist

I have discovered just recently how idealistic I am. I want everything to be in order, in pure perfection. As much as possible, everything that I do must be in a state of absoluteness which ends up getting me a little bit frustrated about everything, actually.

Its a sickness, I think which develops from too much critical-thinking and overanalysis about everything that goes around me that leaves me speculating and forming theories that discloses me to be idealist and perfectionist. There are some pros but adversely there's mostly the cons. Usually, I end up disappointed and sorry for myself because it's either I don't have the guts or the universe just don't go along with it.

So when did this started? Just recently actually, occurs everywhere in particular and the variables in my so-called experiment are the humans of different species. I think it has been my hobby ever since to observe people and some seats from La salle offers a good view! But, I know that I cannot pursue this idealistic and perfectionist approach of mine because I, myself, is pouring with flaws and imperfections and mind you I am too far from being perfect.

That's why I felt sometimes different. Like, there's this invisible wall that separates me from the real world to the "other different world of mine". I like living in my world, but sometimes there are things that drove you to the real world and suddenly realize that "your world" is a mere illusion, an ESCAPE from the reality that you tried to run-off ever since. Reality hurts, sometimes. Its the most thing that you want to avoid. It's the one thing that you don't want to face. Maybe I'm just afraid. Scared that I might get hurt again in the end, frightened that I might hurt other people, again. I am just afraid...

Actually, I'm a coward. I'm just in an armor suite of a great, courageous soldier trying to put down everything that gets into his way. But inside, that soldier is a coward, fragile, feeble and irresolute.

But I will still be an idealist/perfectionist. :D

Filipinos Need a "Good Movie. No seriously, a really "Good One"

And when I say "good", I'm not talking about the same-old movie genre that we Filipinos always advertise. The same-old love team, the same-old boring, superficial and very gooey stories. How I wish that Filipinos can make "good stuffs" at least in the field of cinematic approach. Believe me, I have no educational background or whatsoever in the cinema but as a person who loves movie and enjoys a "good" movie, I am quite aware and became open on how movies should affect people's state of mind. This is not so nationalistic but I really enjoy "foreign" movies rather than Pinoy ones. Yes, I must say that there are "few" and "some" noticeable Filipino movies that can I can be proud of, most of them are indies. But sad to say, those films that are even a candidate for the Metro Manila Film Festivals are not that really good. Sure they bring laughter, sure they bring "kilig", sure they bring suspense or thriller but there's no substance in it.

My father hates Filipino movies, but not all of them. One time I asked him, what makes other movies so good that even you watched it for like hundred of times you will not get tired of it? My father says that it's the substance and depth the movie has and I believe him. Good movies have substance, depth that can leave their audience awed with amazement.

Movies can affect us, in fact in many different ways. All we need to do especially to the cinema

tographers that we are portraying a good influence to the movies that we want to inculcate in the minds of the audience.

I had just finished a very good movie. The Story of Emile Zola. Emile Zola is a French writer. All his life, he fought for truth and justice and I think his life until his death is an inspiration to many. His works brought up turmoil in the injustices of the French military army due to its unfair and injustice acts of its officers.

So, who agrees with me?

Who loves foreign movie and who love Pinoy movies more?

This is just a thought.