Too Thankful!

With my recent fretting about my grade in Chem, finally I have come across Doc Sam and I was really surprised the moment I saw my grade. Angels from heavens sing: "Hallelujah". Finally, finally, finally I can sleep well and breath well. There's like a big chunk of bone stuck on your throat that has been removed! What a great feeling. I bring back all of these to Him. Thank you po! I promise that I'll never have that feeling of anxiety ever again next sem. I really hate that kind of feeling.

I have been trying to make myself busy these days but it seems that all that I'm planning to do won't work out because I always ended up sleeping. I sleep like there's no tomorrow. Well anyway, I'm barely not sleeping during school days, its as if sleeping is a luxury that cannot be bought, my body is only asking some sleep. hahaha.

I have been back with editing and blogging! I have been using Adobe Photoshop CS 4 and I'm still have lots of learning and studying to do. If only my laptop could have a bigger space... can someone buy me an external memory drive 500 GB or 1 TB?! hahaha. Or, or I could buy Macbook 1 TB and enjoy my life. Ooooo! I have been really itching to buy one, but I have to wait until med school.

Honestly right now, I have lots of things that I want but it seems that it could only be possible just by imagining it. "If only I could buy this, or buy that..." "If only I have the infinite money...", too many ifs, that's why I'm really trying hard to study so those "ifs" will turn to reality.

Well, I have to be thankful on what I have right now and have to live a better life.

:)

The World As We Know It

Oh, I'm thinking the first line on how to start this one, but looks like I've got one!

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I'm like a retard, a minuscule tweet on this humongous, filthy piece of land. I know, many people know that.

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Have you ever felt that wanting to rob Bill Gates' mansion or even fake his account? So you could own lots and lots of money? Shame for me, I didn't get his wits. :)

I'm hopeless. I feel hopeless. I'm emo. I'll slight my wrist, draw some weird eyeliner under my eyes and all the emo-things.


They say that its just a strand of hair between sanity and insanity and I've crossed that line!

Do I look like Audrey Hepburn? Or maybe Megan Fox? Or maybe Heidi Klum? Adriana Lima?
Stop all this sh*ty talks.

Sometimes, doing your best is not enough. I want to be Albert Einstein, i want to have his beliefs, his intelligence but it seems that there's something that hinders me from achieving it like some "ethical distress" thingy.

Gosh! I'm emo again. Can't I talk some "happy" things. Um, i've got lots of suitors!!! hahaha. That's crap actually. That's a happy talk for me. hahaha.

I have been a bum... a real certified bum. I'm like sleeping 4 hours and wake up to eat then sleep again. My headaches.

Do I sound like a retard? If I do sound, then stop reading this nonsense, if otherwise. If you could understand this "things" retarded, insane people do, then thank you.

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I'm Back!

Whew! Almost 2 months of no blogging, must have been really engrossing myself from too much academics, which I literally have done. I was like a robot that was programmed to do this and that and to tell you honestly that was really tiring, so tiring. This sem has really left an overtly overwhelming part in me, I have experienced all different kinds emotions-- from excited to being depressed (emo! hahaha with Keisha), to being excessively happy, nervous, anxious, eager, LAZY and all that stuff and semester break is just a breath of fresh air and ah! how could I forget Doc Sam, he's the major highlight of this semester, hahaha! I never thought that chemistry would be soo exciting, fun and stressful with him, of course with Doc Sam's help. :))
Now that is not sarcastic as you may see it, I'm serious about it. Doc Sam is an angel in disguise, though many students CAN'T and some many NOT be able to see this one. He wants his students to learn, to stand up on their own and to THINK, to think really hard that all the juices on brain will be sucked out. hahaha. Nevertheless, I just want to thank Doc Sam for all the learnings, though I'm quite not satisfied with my grades on Chem! But anyway, I have a great feeling that he will still be our prof in Org Chem and I really don't know if I'll be elated? hahaha.

Enough of my blabbering about Doc Sam.

Next sem would be a tough one for us, indeed. Below is my schedule and we've reached the maximum units!

PreRegistration Second Semester, SY 2009 - 2010

Advised Subjects

CourseCode SectCode CourseTitle Units From To Days Room CHEM111k S02 ORGANIC CHEMISTRY LEC 3.00 1000 1130 WF PCH105 CHEM111Lk S02 ORGANIC CHEMISTRY LAB 2.00 1300 1600 TH PCH305/306 FILI103c S02 MASINING NA PAGPAPAHAYAG 3.00 830 1000 WF PCH105 PHED104 S13 TEAM SPORTS 2.00 1300 1500 M ULS PHYS103a S02 MECHANICS AND HEAT LEC 3.00 1300 1600 F PCH106 PHYS103La S02 MECHANICS AND HEAT LAB 1.00 700 1000 M PCH107/108 REED144 S13 SPIRITUALITY OF SOCIAL TRANSFORMATION 3.00 1600 1730 WF PCH105 SOSC106 S11 PHILIPPINE GOVERNMENT & NEW CONSTITUTION 3.00 1600 1730 TH COS102 ZOOL111b S01 COMPARATIVE ANATOMY OF VERTEBRATES LEC 3.00 1000 1130 TH COS102 ZOOL111Lb S01 COMPARATIVE ANATOMY OF VERTEBRATES LAB 2.00 700 1000 TH PCH204/205

Total Units: 25.0 Maximum Units Allowed: 25.00

Cancelled - Subject Cancelled (Prerequisite subject failed or subject already taken)

Available - Subject Available

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Pre-Registration Completed

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Though I am so looking forward on this one, I still have an angst in terms of my academic status. I still really don't know if I am capable to excelling on this one. I hope, I hope with God's help that I would still be able to excel. Hoo! Anyways, if ever I would not be able to pursue med, I'll be jumping off the clip and be like Bella, waiting for Edward or Jacob or some hot stuff out there to save me and I'll marry him, blah blah blah. hahaha. Now, that would be nice. =)

No! I won't let myself befallen once again into procrastination and excessive laziness. I have done with I have been through with the past and the consequences at stake are too much, I won't let that happen again. God has given me ONE more chance not to commit the "same mistake" I have done before and I humbly and deeply thank Him for that, He's really good.

Ah! I'll promise to make this semester break productive.

1. Read as much as I want! Books! Books! Books! I can't live without them!

2. Driving Lessons! Finally.

3. Clean my room. My room is like a forest where all different forms of life are already accumulating.

4. Sleep! Is there anything more divine?

5. Food, ahh!

6. Movies, I really feel so movie deprived.

7. Be more active in church. =))

8. PIANO!!!! I haven't really been able to touch the keys since who-knows-when and I'm going back to my old pieces.

9. And anything that I could think of...

Thank you and it's nice to be back. :)

Just a Moment

I need to take a break. I am becoming too cynical and pessimistic about things lately. I am lately becoming bitter and afflictive more like of a "What the f*ck do you care?!", something like that and it sounds bad. hahaha. I have been burying myself lately to Ecology and Chem books. I have been working pre-labs and postlabs non-stop and even though I don't have any works to do, I still think of doing something because there's something in me that tells that I should do something and to tell you quite frankly, that's really wierd. I am very much concern with my grades right now because I can't afford to fail at any subject. But looking at what's happening right now, the more I "try" the harder it gets for me to be my best and that really sucks.

I am miss reading books, having a good movie to watch or just spending time with myself. I miss RELAXING. It seems that I need to buy that word "relaxing". I have at least to balance my daily consumption of those freaking so-called "knowledge". Being too scientific gives leaves you to be a total stranger to this world, so I need to have some good literary things to refresh my significance in this world. Haaah! I need to pamper myself with a good book, but how on Pete's sake can I do that? When in fact, I don't have the time to finish reading my major subjects' books. Now that freakin' frustrating.

Well, at least here's blogging, a convenient way to channel my ramblings and mumblings. School is so tiring.

A Thought from a Cynic

WHAT IS THE ESSENCE OF LIFE?

ANSWER:


I DON'T HAVE ANY @#$@#&* IDEA!!!!!!