Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Amnesia

1 Peter 3-3:4

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment,
such as braided hair and waring of gold jewelry and fine clothes.
Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty
of a gentle and quiet spirit,
which is of great worth in God's spirit.

We had a discussion about mental health in Health for the past few days, and gawd! I am so into it, maybe i'm having relations with it. haha...being baliw! Well, Glazy narrated that she had an amnesia, a quite weird amnesia, she said that she had an amnesia on a person that is so close to her. Her bestfried died a long time ago, due to her depression according to her, she had an amnesia, but only to her bestfried. It is so cool, an amnesia only on a "certain" thing, the hard part about that is that of all the things that you will be forgotten off, why would it be the very important person who has been a part of your life. Oh well! I said to myself, if ever I experienced Glazy's, I would rather forget everything except MATH!!!! haha...I've been having sleepless nights because of math and having an amnesia is not an excuse on it. I won't let amnesia, make me back again to basics. haha...Just joking.

We've done some cooking thing on HE this morning and it was quite fun except on the part when we are scolded by Mam San Jose because we were so late at her period.

I am so into myself right now, because i've noticed that in these past few days, I've been having a moment when I think really deep, being silent has dominated my times since then, and I don't know why... maybe because of the things that happen to me especially about friends, in school and in church. In church, I am really feeling uncomfortable, I just don't know, maybe it's natural because it's not everytime that you feel ok with your friends. All I can say that it is so unfair. You will not really receive the same amount of caring and understanding that you give for that person and don't expect that they will give the "same" or "greater" amount of caring and understanding that you have given, because people are not like that. You will be hurt no matter what, and I learned that you must accept to be hurt and to be loved. It's just really unfair because I felt that "my friend" treats my "other friend" more important than I do, that is in fact, we shared many things already. I am really hurt. And it's ok to be hurt because you are becoming closer to God. Having a heart to heart talk with Him.

By the way, UpCat is coming so close!!!! It's July 26 and my test will be on August 4, 12:30 pm at Malcolm hall (College of Law) UP Diliman. I'm really nervous, and like all Iglesia ni Cristo, if ever I have things that I want to do, I want to consult everything to God. So in short, nagpapanata na ako. But I have to work hard for that, and we have a refreshing course this Saturday at Academic One, and I have to be better on it because I am so disappointed about...well I don't hae to say this.

Well it's half past midnight and I just want to stop by at my blog to jot down things. Next time ulit!

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