Time-Out

My mind really need some break now. I have reading and reading and reading. Let's talk about my fondness in photography. I have been liking photography since everyone liked it :p. The only sad part is, I still can't own a DSLR, preferably Canon and really I don't care if its the latest or not, all I want is to have one. And since I am still a student who tragically still "depend" on my parents for money, I still won't be able to collect 80k even if I don't eat for the rest of the year. Its just too expensive and needs a downright consequences. Maybe I have to kwatro all my subjects? Nah! I think it will not still work-out, hahaha. My love for photography has been growing and growing through time. I love taking priceless moments, I love how photography captures the most captivating part in nature, people, places, etc. It does not need to speak, everything in the picture says it all. It has the power to capture every hearts and souls of people and I think that's the beauty of photography. I have been really enthusiast lately, of course with the aid of my trusted digicam. But still I want to upgrade it. I still do believe in MIRACLES! DSLR!!!!

Here are some photos that I've taken and also edited by yours truly

Hocus Focus

I have been contemplating really hard for the past few weeks. As usual, I have been put under tremendous amount of stress and every end of the day I am so very thankful to God because He let me get through the whole day. I have been really blessed, really blessed. I have once again been at the Dean's List and got a full scholarship this semester. The thought that I could help my family financially at least lifts me up and gives me a thought that they could be proud of me. Add up that my brother, Kokoy, passed the UPCAT exams. People say that I bear grudges over him and it is quite the contrary, actually. I am so proud of my brother, at least he didn't made the BIGGEST mistake that I have done, hahaha. Oh! Enough of talks about UP. I have been living in regrets for almost I can remember and no matter what I do, I know that UP is not meant for me. I have been studying 2 years now at DLSU-D and I just have to accept the fact that my biggest dream in studying at UP is now as bleak as possible. All that I can do is do my best to achieve my dreams, of course with the help and guidance of the Lord, focus and focus.

Though sometimes, FAILURE=KIM. Sometimes, I feel that I was born to be a complete failure and laughing stock. Have anyone felt that? That you're fed up of trying and sick of motivating and encouraging yourself? I have been honed and molded as a really different human being, from my thoughts to my beliefs, I am completely honest that I am "out-of-this-world". But sometimes, I really need to get along to folks that really don't get me. Get it? Yeah, its complicated. I have to adapt to different climatic changes around me. The surrounding in Masci is totally different from the surrounding in DLSU-D. Yes, I know that that's a totally different world. But, let me tell you, being in Masci means a lot of being in college--competitive, etc. OH! How I wish I could undo things in my life and get them straight the way I want them to be. How I wish I CHOOSE my FRIENDS right.

As you may have notice, I still can't move on. I have been living a totally different life now, but I still can't move on from the past. I haunts me, actually. It haunts me to the very core. I need life, I need opportunities. I want to develop as a total human person and be active in this world. I hate mediocrity but I, myself, is a complete mediocre. Is there anything worse than that? I need peace of mind, I need calmness and I need love.

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My ipod is finally back! I'm so filled with happiness.

Suppose to be studying some lessons in Compa Ana Lec instead I can't help but to spend my time here blabbering stupid things.

Have you ever felt that you are such a failure? That you better off dead than to be alive.

How I wish....

And the truth is...

I don't give a sh*t. If people don't like me, if they "thought" that some kind of saint is more cool then I don't give a damn. The hell I care.


Just sayin'.

My Usual Cramming

I really miss my Ipod now. Well, you see, long time ago I lost my ipod video tragically. I became so depressed at that moment that I really felt a lost inside me. I know, I know I am a drama-queen but call me that or whatsoever, I really felt incomplete. That Ipod has been with me through tough times, comforting me when I needed one then out of the blue some psycho would just snatch it?!

Well, paving my way towards purchasing another Ipod is a tremendous job to be done. I need to work extra extra hard on persuading my parents and alas I've done it. They've graciously bought me a 120 Gb Ipod Classic (Black) and I'm loving it.

Well, here comes the sad part on it. Less than I think 6 months of purchasing it, a line right through the LCD seems to be appearing and I think that in time it will grow as big that it can cover the whole LCD, I was devastated! I googled and learned that some kind of pixelation has happened and I rushed my Ipod as soon as possible to the nearest Power Mac Center for diagnosis. And I still haven't got news from it. I miss it badly. :( I hope the they would replace it will a newer one so as to avoid further damage. I also promised myself that though its leather cover is quite costly (1200php) I'm really going to buy it.

Too much lamenting for my Ipod.

I want an extended holiday vacation. Besides I still want to do things I planned but still haven't done it, I also needed more time on studying! Crap!