Trying to be Strong...

I want to be strong...in all times of my life, even in tough and hard times, i don't want people to notice that I am weak. But everyday, at night, i always feel that i am so weak and helpless. Battling through my surroundings and people around me, like surviving through the fittest. I hate this feeling, being helpless and weak... I want to be strong...but there are times that I just want to be quiet and irritated because, I don't have the power to make a difference, in myself and in my surroundings... I feel useless and I hate this feeling. I want to go to school, to learn new things, but everytime I go to school i just felt bad... and I don't know why.... i really hate this feeling. maybe because of the pressure of teachers and studies and I want peace of mind. I cannot thoroughly explain my sentiments at this moment because my mind was so complicated at this moment, i don't know where to begin and end everything.... i really feel helpless... i am so weak... pretending to be strong... i want to be strong... but still i felt so useless.... i hate this feeling