Cerebral Palsy

I have been doing this research about Cerebral Palsy for our forum about birth defects and gosh, I am must say I am quite overwhelmed and taken aback by this neurological disease.

Cerebral Palsy is a persistent disorder caused by an abnormality in the brain. It can occur before the time of birth which is the major cause. It can likewise be due during the time that the baby is in the mother's womb, when the brain doesn't develop normally or an infection or trauma has occurred while the child is developing in the womb. Minor causes are problems during the time of delivering the baby which is very unusual and uncommon. Those who suffer from this disorder are children born prematurely and the fact is that, 40% of children with cerebral palsy are born prematurely. Signs and symptoms of CP are problems in movement, slurry speeches, spinal curvature, learning disabilities, etc. The cerebellum is the part of the brain that controls most of our main movement and it is the part of the brain that was being attacked by Cerebral Palsy.

So, I was doing some research. I stumble upon this video from youtube. Her name is Rachel Esdaille and has cerebral palsy. But it doesn't end on that, she is an English major, a writer and has already published her novel entitled: "Pictures of Silver". This girl is just amazing. I actually had tears while watching this video. Try to watch it:






"We all have GREATNESS in us". That's just bring me to tears.

Our brain is one of a hell of work of art. Its a piece of round, jelly like, greenish substance inside our head yet its power and greatness is beyond compare. I love how beautiful our brains our that it can thrust us into different directions and unmeasurable capabilities. Truly, God is a genius.

The Story of Creation

Ever since, I am always intrigued with this Story of Creation. It is the first story that I ever read, which is of course the first story in the Bible. The Story of Creation marks the dawn of mankind and the birth of all sins. I have been asking myself for a long time, what if Eve did not give in to the serpent's temptation? Would you be alive? Would mankind burst into this vast diversity? Would there be a world as we know today? I sometimes wonder, though I did not really presume that what I'm thinking is a sin or what, but I sometimes doubt if God really "intends" for man to sin. Haha. Really stupid of me, what do you think? Though I'm not really convinced on what I stupidly "assume", its just a dumb thought I think. :D

While browsing some articles in Reader's Digest, March 2009, I stumbled into this article about the Creation. Its a sort of a parody and I was laughing all the way, here's what is says:

.... In the beginning God created heaven and earth. And earth was without form and void.

And God made a circular light in the heavens, and he called it the Sun. And God saw that the light was good.

And the Devil made a smaller light, rectangular in shape, and he called it TV. And the Devil saw that the light was bad.

And God made springs which came out of the ground, oozing fountains of pure, fresh water. And God saw that the water was good.

And the Devil invented fizzy drinks. And saw that the fizzy drinks were bad.

And God said, Let the earth bring forth vegetables, and the herb of the field, that the children may grow up healthy. And it was so.

And the Devil said, Let there be deep-fried potatoes.

And God said, Let the water bring forth 10,000 varieties of fish, that they may provide sustenance for the children.

And the Devil arranged that the fish be smothered in batter, deep fried, and served with deep-fried potatoes.

And God created the cattle of the field, and said, Behold, I have given you every living creature that moveth; to you it shall be for meat.

And the Devil showed how the meat could be minced and turned into burgers, and suggesteth that it be always served with deep-fried potatoes.

And on the seventh day, God rested and asked that his children rest too, and use the day to contemplate the wonders of creation.

And the Devil created the all-day brunch, cartoon TV channels, and Sunday newspapers filled with articles about celebrities, that the minds of the children be filled with rubbish and their bodes filled with yet more deep-fried potatoes.

And God said to the boy, Take the girl and go forth and multiply. And of your seed I shall make a great nation, as numberless as the stars of heavens.

And the Devil invented the computer and recruited 10,000 demons to fill it with online battles and images of top-heavy women. And the boy did part with the girl and did instead cleave to the computer.

And God pointed out to the girl that he had made her with many attractive blandishments which she could use whenever the boy was away from the computer.

And the Devil invented the Nintendo DS Lite so that the boy will be able to take computer games with him wherever he goes.

Now the serpent was more subtle than any of the animals that God had created. And the Devil dud enter into the serpent and cause him to say to the girl and the boy, The tree in the middle of the garden the Lord hath told you not to touch. But I say unto you, if you eat of the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil, your eyes will be opened and you shall be gods.

And the boy and the girl looked at the serpent and said unto him: No thanks. We liketh not fruit. But hast thou any deep-fried potatoes?

And here endeth today's scripture reading. Amen.

And oh, if ever the first man and woman have not committed sin, would you and I stand face to face naked? Just a thought. :D

Thank God for Giving me Time

Quote:Nothing is so dear and precious as time.- French Proverb
I Thank God for giving me enough time,
Time to reflect on all the things I have done in my life,
You know it's great that God shows His love in a different way,
Talking to your mother, going to the mall,
He is everything.
He shows His love for us in every possible way that "people we expect" to do it.

Though my life is a journey and I am not still halfway on my journey, though I sometimes don't want to go on anymore because of the bumps and the bruises I receive all the way, though sometimes there's no light to guide me through the way, that choosing the right path is sometimes a hard decision to make because you have no choice. But there's always a choice, it's only in the matter of thinking. God is always there. Even when the road is dark and dreary He is there. I don't know, I just know he is there. He wants us to learn and go back through time and reminesce His love for us. There are so many wonders from God that we have to realize, the wind, the birds, the chiming of the wind bells, the tv, the clothes, the shoes, the piano, the music.... all the things that we are capable of using today it's all God's creation. No wonder man exploited it. *Sighs*. It's really hard and tiring to be good, but's worth it because you are with Him. You find peace and a sense of tranquility within you when you feel Him, it's like you're floating. Lately, I have been dreaming stuffs about my life, schools, family and friends. I don't know maybe dreams are fortellers of the future. I don't know, I just sometimes see that they happen in a coincendental way I dreamt of them. It's wierd. *Sighs*.

Do I want to be a cook? A doctor? An interior designer? A fashion model? A Physics nobelist? So many dreams yet sometimes I feel that it is only through dreaming that I can achieve those dreams. God is powerful, full of wisdom and He knows what better for us. He loves us. He loves His children. He loves me, He loves you. Don't worry. He is always there.

Alone

Feeling uneasy and frustrated about things that happened around me... Ang sama talaga ng ganitong feeling. Gusto kong magtagalog para masabi ang lahat ng mga gusto ko ng hindi nagtatrying hard na mag-English. As you know, may mga bagay sa mundong ito na sadyang hindi natin maintindihan. May mga pagkakataong gusto na nating magpakamatay, umiyak at sumigaw ng napakalakas para maipakita natin ang ating kainisan, galit o anuman na nakapagpapabagabag sa ating kalooban. In life, people seems to be unfair, kahit naman ako minsan unfair din, pero ngayon ang pakiramdam ko mag-isa ako, hindi ako makatagpo ng isang kaibigan na talagang nandyan sa para sa akin, sa dinami daming pagkakataon, maraming tao na akong nakasalamuha pero yung taong magbibigay ng same amount of attention na binibigay ko, parang wala talaga akong makita, totoo hindi nawawala ang bestfriend ko at alam kong "Friendship knows no distance". Pero I'm looking for a friend, hindi bagong bestfriend, just a friend that I know I always can count on too. Nasaktan na ako, umasa, umiyak, thinking na bat sila ganon? They are so unfair, hindi din ba nila maisip ang nararamdaman ko hindi naman ganon ang ipinapakita kong feelings towards sa kanila, I try to show them that I smile even though sobrang lungkot ko. Talang fed up na ako, I am really feeling alone, lahat sila may bestfriend, lahat sila may napagkukwentuhan ng mga bagay na comfortable sa kanila, lahat sila may katext, lahat sila nagtatawanan, while there is me- me who longs for a friend, me who longs for my bestfriend, kung pwede ko lang ipaconvert ang bestfriend ko gagawin ko, kaya nalulungkot din ako. Kasi kahit sa salvation I will be alone. Masakit umasa, masakit ipagsiksikan ang sarili mo sa mga taong ayaw naman o kung hindi ayaw ay hindi nakikisama sa gusto mo. Mahirap na nakikibagay lang sila sayo...yun lang. I wish to find them or her. Masyado lang talagang fed up ang feelings ko ngayon.

Idagdag pa ang personal problems ko, being stupid, lazy, thinking things that are all stupidity. Ewan ko kung maliligtas ako, naging masama akong tao, may mga bagay na kelangan kong dapat matutunan pero pinagwawalang bahala ko, siguro narin sa mga iba't ibang problems. Ang hirap magpakatao. Most of the times kahit kasama ko ang mga friends ko I feel so alone, na parang hindi ko kayang malabas ang mga feelings na dapat ilabas ko, natatakot akong makasakit ng feelings ng iba, natatakot ako dahil baka hindi nila maintindihan. I'm just so afraid. Bakit ganon? Kahit walang pasok ay stressed out ang emotions ko. Please stop, I need some rest. Kelangan kong magpahinga, napapagod na akong masaktan, umasa, makibagay, magbigay ng magbigay pwede bang ako naman ang alagaan, intindihin, pakiusapan, pagbigyan. Pwede ba kahit isang pagkakataon, hindi ako yung makikinig, pwede bang kayo naman yung makinig? Ako naman yung maglalabas ng mga bagay na gusto kong ishare. May nangyayari rin naman sa buhay ko, may mga bagay na nagpapaiyak rin sa akin. Bakit sa tuwing kailangan ko ng tulong ay walang taong nagtatanong..."May problema ka ba?"..."Ok ka lang?"....Kahit yung mga ganong tanong lang ok na sa akin, makagagaaan na ng loob ko....pero ang masakit doon, wala, minsan ay sila pa itong magagalit sa akin dahil napaka-moody ko....bakit kayo hindi ba ganito? Minsan nga kahit ako na walang ginagawa ay pinagbubuntungan niyo ng inis eh. Kahit..."Ok ka lang ba?"...ok na sa akin.... kahit yun lang.....may pakiramdam din naman ako...Sawa na akong magparaya, sawa na akong magbigay, sawa na akong mag-isa, sawa na akong malungkot at sawa ng akong magbigay...Pwede ba? Pakiusap lang naman Po? Pwede po ba....kahit isang beses sa buhay ko bago ako mamatay o matapos ang mundo, may ISANG taong magbibigay importansya sa akin, magpaparaya, iiyak, masasaktan, magtatanong ng "ok ka lang ba?", "May sakit ka ba?", "Musta naman araw mo?" sa akin...Kahit sa huling pagkakataon po....kahit sandali lang po madama ko yun....Masaya na po ako....

Gusto kong umiyak na parang bata, umiyak ng malakas, magwala pero kailangan kong pigilan ang sarili ko dahil ayoko kayong masaktan...