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Summer Addiction

Yes, in between baby sitting I still find time to enjoy my summer, at the least of it. Baby sitting is "sometimes" fun but it gives me a greater amount of pain in the ass. It so happen that I only read 2 novels this summer. I'm such a loser. Actually its 3 but I don't include American Gods. The thing is, I end up snoozing every time a read a book, either it is I'm really sleepy or the book is boring so its up for you to judge. Anyway, I am playing this game on my cellphone called 3D Rally its kinda like a racing game and I'm so addicted to it. I can't sleep! I'm serious. LOL. I'm now like a raccoon. But, at last! I have unlocked all of its level and I'm have gone to rehab already so I'm through with my addiction. LOL. So besides playing a cp game, I'm watching America's Next Top Model. I just love this show but I don't much like Tyra. Sorry Tyra fans. I love the shoots, the clothes, the models and the catfights! Rawrr! LOL. I just love watching them saying curses to each other. This cycle, I'm betting for Raina Hein. See pictures below:

I love her eyes

I'm so gay. LOL. Besides Raina, I'm drooling for Ian Somerhalder. The guy in Lost and Vampire Diaries and a Gucci, Guess model. Name them all. HOT! Whew! He has that dreamy eyes that melts every woman's heart and the body! Whew! Drooling.

I love men in suits. Especially when its IAN!

Ok! I'm officially drooling.

Ian somehow also resemble Chace Crawford, my other boyfriend. LOL. Can I have a guy like Ian? LOL. He's too irresistible. Made to perfection.

So, you can say that my summer addiction is about obsessing to men and women. LOL. I promise to read some academic related stuff this summer.I have read some introductory stuff about Histology but I still haven't opened my book in Biochem and I still have no freaking idea about my class on physics. I just can't study especially in this kind of heat.

I'm planning to watch Vampire Diaries. Looks waaayyyy better than Twilight. True Blood is also good but its rated not for teens. Vampires are in, aren't they? Well, I don't care, as long as they're hot.

Teehee

Moving

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I'll be updating stuffs here also.

Love lots,
Kim

ELECTION 2010!

5 days before the national election and I have to say I'm quite excited cause I'll be voting now. The truth is, politics is the least of my concern. I really don't care much about it because besides the fact that it is a downright dirty job, its lame, ok?! Ang yabang ko. hehe.

Many Filipinos are surely asking themselves: "May pag-asa pa kaya ang Pilipinas na makabangon?". I have been asking myself the same question also and as far as I can see, Philippines need a total "make-over". We need to start from scratch. Iba kasi ang mindset nating mga Pilipino compared to other nations. Yes, we can blame all those foreigner that invaded our lands- Spaniards, Americans, Japan. A big mention to Spain who has greatly contributed to what we are-- our culture, our norms, etc. Idagdag rin natin ang mga kano. Have you ever consider, what if Philippines is not Philippines? I mean, are we going to be in this state if we were not conquered in the past? Sure maraming nagawa ang pananakop sa atin ng mga Kastila at Amerikano, there's the good side in it but as I can see it now, mas nakikita ang cons. Filipinos are becoming less and less patriotic and nationalistic and that's exactly what we need. Look at China. Heavens, Chinese love for their country is beyond greatness. They could die for it. What about us? Could we die for this country? In Thailand, they have this golden statue that could be displayed in public but mind you, it will not be stolen. How about the Filipinos? Makakita lang ng kahit statwang gawa sa tanso, kinabukasan gone like the wind. Yes, that's us. I have to admit, I have no sense of nationalism and patriotism and the truth is if ever I'll be given a chance to swap citizenship I'll be glad to do so, except on notorious countries of course. Its just then that I've come to realize the importance of our culture. We must preserve it. We must preserve the "good" things that we have. Take for example the Metropolitan Theater located in Lawton, Manila. Metropolitan theater s an art deco building designed by the Filipino architect Juan M. de Guzman Arellano, and inaugurated on December 10, 1931, with a capacity of 1670 (846 orchestra, 116 in loge, and 708 in balcony). Credits to Wiki for that.

Met Theater (Before)

Met Theater (After) *ang galing talaga*

It used to be so classy and grand, now vandalism are all over. It needs to be revive. Its an artifact, a structure with historical value that we need to preserve but why do we destroy such thing? Its sad but true. Ganyan natin kamahal ang Pilipinas. We are constantly building large infrastructures, cutting down trees for investors to come yet we are not aware that we destroying the beauty that we had once. I'm sure Rizal, Bonifacio or many of our martyr would be really pissed off if they could see our situation right now. They would surely come back from the grave.

Now I'm saying this not as an activist or an advocate or what. I feel pity for our country, for us Filipinos. We are too degraded and discriminated by other nations. We need to revive our grandeur and our spark. We had that once. I don't know if its too late but we have to work now.

On May 10, 2010 your votes will determine the future of this country. We need a "decent" leader because all our leaders are "crazy".

On May 10, go out and vote. Vote wisely.

:)

Coco Chanel and Nine

So, lately I was very addicted in watching movies. This is one of the things I should have accomplish in doing perfectly this summer. Watch as many movies as I can. YEBA! So last night I convinced myself that I'm going to watch "Nine" because Daniel Day Lewis is in the movie. Though I already had a premonition that this movie will be going to be a super-big-size "flop", I still tried it on. And I was right. The movie is a big failure. It doesn't brought the excitement that I want instead it was draggy and too overrated. I hate Kate Hudson in this movie (the fact is, I hate her in all her movies), doing the stripper dance all over just didn't fit her. Its like imagining me, doing a sexy, stripper thing which is gross, right? Penelope Cruz was hot but she doesn't really portray that "hotness". While the rest, I have no idea what they were doing. I decided to watch other film last night, cause I was getting really bored. All those fancy-stripper dance just doesn't work for me, at least.

So, Coco Chanel saved my night. I really have no idea of Chanel's past life until I watched this movie. An ambitious, young lady from France who dreams of becoming an actress instead becoming this fashion icon whom celebrated and fancied by the era today. Such an inspiring story from rags to riches and a very tragic love life, I must say. Coco says ..."I never intend to marry anyone". So, she never did but at least she still leaves the legacy of her style. Audrey Tautou can act! Heavens! I thought she was Coco resurrected. I love her in this movie. I was planning to see Amelie. His leading men are all good and sexy and they speak French, which is so cool. I have never really a big fan of high class fashion, not that I don't adore them or fancy them its just that dreaming of those 10,000 bucks clothes just won't let me even dare to think about it. They are way, way too expensive. I wonder why they have increased the marketing at such a high markings? Coco Chanel is not a socialite for pete's sake! Make her clothes, shoes, hats and bags more affordable! Or maybe, I should try audition in "Nine" and do some strippy dance to make into Hollywood and do porn! Then, I'll be able to buy some Chanel dresses. Hahaha. Just kidding, of course.

Adam

Let me give you a brief summary of the movie. No spoilers, don't

worry. Adam. So this movie is about love, mainly, I think. But its not your typical love plot that end up in a seemingly predictable way. Its about Adam played by Hugh Dancy, who has an Aspeger Syndrome, a kind of autism that mainly have problem dealing and socializing with other people and stuff. His father died so the challenge is for him to survive his seemingly depleting life- getting fired from his job, etc. Until he met Beth played by Rose Byrne, a pre-school teacher. The love story is very cute, though. :)

And all I can say is WOW. This movie end me up crying. Hugh Dancy, my new man by the way, is so perfect in this movie that if I were be able to do so, I give him an Academy Award. He's so hot and cute at the same time, playing the Aspergery guy but still retains his hotness. Don't you like that? Ok, ok. I'm not doing a review about Hugh Dancy, I am quite aware of that. But who can resist his charm? I hate Claire Danes. Anyway, the movie is so good, other than the fact that its a love story, it tells about the authenticity of life. The imperfections, the flaws and the bad things that life can offer you. This is not a feel good movie, actually. I don't feel good at the end of watching it but there's this feeling of lightness in me. A refreshing feeling. Its very unfathomable, its the just the feeling of "lightness".

As for anyone who would want to watch Adam. I highly recommend this movie. Enjoy!

Baby-Sitting

I have been baby sitting for almost 2 weeks now. Almost, because its Friday today. Mind you, baby sitting is not an easy task especially when the one you're baby sitting is as murderous as my little sister. Hahaha. That may exaggerate things a little bit but its quite true, though. Ah! For almost 2 weeks I am now an expert when it comes to nursery rhymes and songs. I have known they already by heart that I could recite, sing with a matching dance interpretation. The songs are stuck in my head that I could actually sing them while I'm sleeping. Baby-sitting is fun. Yeah! Fun, in the sense that I should clean up poos, learn to change diapers, play basketball, get myself downright dirty, eat jelly aces, "un"- clutter "cluttered" things, stuff like that. There are times I lose my patience and get really temperamental, added the heat that is barely tolerable.

While baby-sitting, it made think of things lately. On what might happen this incoming school year. Now that I'm in 3rd year college, not long enough, I'll be graduating with Latin Honor (this would be lovely), we'll be going somewhere outside the country, I'll have a car (yeah, I know how to drive already =) and I'll be going to MED SCHOOL! That's it. Working to be a doctor, what could be more fulfilling than that? But oh! I'm aware of what should I have to go through. I'm aware of the fact that graduating with Latin Honor would really test my ability and most especially my faith. I have been very fortunate to gather some useful information from my reliable college friends. They warned me to be careful in Histology. Huhu, and honestly I'm already fidgetting about it. But I'm quite sick and tired of worrying, so the best thing that I could possibly do is to expect the worse, do my ultimate best and have FAITH!

So I guess, this sums it up. Till next time. :)

Cerebral Palsy

I have been doing this research about Cerebral Palsy for our forum about birth defects and gosh, I am must say I am quite overwhelmed and taken aback by this neurological disease.

Cerebral Palsy is a persistent disorder caused by an abnormality in the brain. It can occur before the time of birth which is the major cause. It can likewise be due during the time that the baby is in the mother's womb, when the brain doesn't develop normally or an infection or trauma has occurred while the child is developing in the womb. Minor causes are problems during the time of delivering the baby which is very unusual and uncommon. Those who suffer from this disorder are children born prematurely and the fact is that, 40% of children with cerebral palsy are born prematurely. Signs and symptoms of CP are problems in movement, slurry speeches, spinal curvature, learning disabilities, etc. The cerebellum is the part of the brain that controls most of our main movement and it is the part of the brain that was being attacked by Cerebral Palsy.

So, I was doing some research. I stumble upon this video from youtube. Her name is Rachel Esdaille and has cerebral palsy. But it doesn't end on that, she is an English major, a writer and has already published her novel entitled: "Pictures of Silver". This girl is just amazing. I actually had tears while watching this video. Try to watch it:






"We all have GREATNESS in us". That's just bring me to tears.

Our brain is one of a hell of work of art. Its a piece of round, jelly like, greenish substance inside our head yet its power and greatness is beyond compare. I love how beautiful our brains our that it can thrust us into different directions and unmeasurable capabilities. Truly, God is a genius.

BURST!

For Pete's sake, I'm not planning to turn into some kind of a dork or even a mad scientist for me to know all this sickening things!

BLAH!

Can't I just focus on what I like?

My mind's capacity has seemingly reached its limit and I think I can't bear it no more. I just CAN'T focus anymore.

Holy ****!

I feel like jumping off a cliff.

I'm itching for SUMMER!

Time-Out

My mind really need some break now. I have reading and reading and reading. Let's talk about my fondness in photography. I have been liking photography since everyone liked it :p. The only sad part is, I still can't own a DSLR, preferably Canon and really I don't care if its the latest or not, all I want is to have one. And since I am still a student who tragically still "depend" on my parents for money, I still won't be able to collect 80k even if I don't eat for the rest of the year. Its just too expensive and needs a downright consequences. Maybe I have to kwatro all my subjects? Nah! I think it will not still work-out, hahaha. My love for photography has been growing and growing through time. I love taking priceless moments, I love how photography captures the most captivating part in nature, people, places, etc. It does not need to speak, everything in the picture says it all. It has the power to capture every hearts and souls of people and I think that's the beauty of photography. I have been really enthusiast lately, of course with the aid of my trusted digicam. But still I want to upgrade it. I still do believe in MIRACLES! DSLR!!!!

Here are some photos that I've taken and also edited by yours truly

Hocus Focus

I have been contemplating really hard for the past few weeks. As usual, I have been put under tremendous amount of stress and every end of the day I am so very thankful to God because He let me get through the whole day. I have been really blessed, really blessed. I have once again been at the Dean's List and got a full scholarship this semester. The thought that I could help my family financially at least lifts me up and gives me a thought that they could be proud of me. Add up that my brother, Kokoy, passed the UPCAT exams. People say that I bear grudges over him and it is quite the contrary, actually. I am so proud of my brother, at least he didn't made the BIGGEST mistake that I have done, hahaha. Oh! Enough of talks about UP. I have been living in regrets for almost I can remember and no matter what I do, I know that UP is not meant for me. I have been studying 2 years now at DLSU-D and I just have to accept the fact that my biggest dream in studying at UP is now as bleak as possible. All that I can do is do my best to achieve my dreams, of course with the help and guidance of the Lord, focus and focus.

Though sometimes, FAILURE=KIM. Sometimes, I feel that I was born to be a complete failure and laughing stock. Have anyone felt that? That you're fed up of trying and sick of motivating and encouraging yourself? I have been honed and molded as a really different human being, from my thoughts to my beliefs, I am completely honest that I am "out-of-this-world". But sometimes, I really need to get along to folks that really don't get me. Get it? Yeah, its complicated. I have to adapt to different climatic changes around me. The surrounding in Masci is totally different from the surrounding in DLSU-D. Yes, I know that that's a totally different world. But, let me tell you, being in Masci means a lot of being in college--competitive, etc. OH! How I wish I could undo things in my life and get them straight the way I want them to be. How I wish I CHOOSE my FRIENDS right.

As you may have notice, I still can't move on. I have been living a totally different life now, but I still can't move on from the past. I haunts me, actually. It haunts me to the very core. I need life, I need opportunities. I want to develop as a total human person and be active in this world. I hate mediocrity but I, myself, is a complete mediocre. Is there anything worse than that? I need peace of mind, I need calmness and I need love.

Blank

My ipod is finally back! I'm so filled with happiness.

Suppose to be studying some lessons in Compa Ana Lec instead I can't help but to spend my time here blabbering stupid things.

Have you ever felt that you are such a failure? That you better off dead than to be alive.

How I wish....

And the truth is...

I don't give a sh*t. If people don't like me, if they "thought" that some kind of saint is more cool then I don't give a damn. The hell I care.


Just sayin'.

My Usual Cramming

I really miss my Ipod now. Well, you see, long time ago I lost my ipod video tragically. I became so depressed at that moment that I really felt a lost inside me. I know, I know I am a drama-queen but call me that or whatsoever, I really felt incomplete. That Ipod has been with me through tough times, comforting me when I needed one then out of the blue some psycho would just snatch it?!

Well, paving my way towards purchasing another Ipod is a tremendous job to be done. I need to work extra extra hard on persuading my parents and alas I've done it. They've graciously bought me a 120 Gb Ipod Classic (Black) and I'm loving it.

Well, here comes the sad part on it. Less than I think 6 months of purchasing it, a line right through the LCD seems to be appearing and I think that in time it will grow as big that it can cover the whole LCD, I was devastated! I googled and learned that some kind of pixelation has happened and I rushed my Ipod as soon as possible to the nearest Power Mac Center for diagnosis. And I still haven't got news from it. I miss it badly. :( I hope the they would replace it will a newer one so as to avoid further damage. I also promised myself that though its leather cover is quite costly (1200php) I'm really going to buy it.

Too much lamenting for my Ipod.

I want an extended holiday vacation. Besides I still want to do things I planned but still haven't done it, I also needed more time on studying! Crap!

To Sum it Up

I'm back once again! At least, I'll be having some decent post until 2009 ends. Whew! Can't believe this year gone by so fast. I'll sure be missing 09, after all this year brought me tremendous changes in my life that I would surely treasure forever.

But before that, my photo above is just crap. Its just a whimsical and freakish way to say hello and I hope I scared you! Boo! Hahaha. Oh well, I have been tired carrying my long hair and I've finally decided to cut it short, though not too short because it will just emphasize my fugly face, so I just keep it not too short. Actually, that photo above has a function why I've put it in there, its the "before-after" dramatic effect and all that--- CHANGE.

Darwin once said that "Species that survive the most are only those that are adapted to change" and quite frankly Darwin has point in there. Rarely do the habitat change for the species to adapt, usually its the opposite of it. I have been in a carousel ride for almost I can remember. I have been in my highest ups and my lowest downs (redundant, I know! intended for exaggeration), I have experienced being suicidal, like slitting the wrist or the emo-type things, or hanging my head somewhere or even jumping off the cliff or just wishing that the world will just torn to pieces! (believe it or not) and I have experienced the highest forms of joy (though not through alcohol, sex or drugs) and fortunately those experiences honed me to be a person who does not see the world superficially. Though there are times that I am still too childish, spoiled, brat and such a bitch sometimes. hahaha.

I've learned, actually just right now, that I can't push myself onto people. If they don't like me, then fine, I'm very fine with that. To hell with them! hahaha. Anyway, I CAN'T expect for all the people to like me. As long as I'm doing the right thing, in His eyes, there's nothing more I can do about it.

Though I really, deeply, hugely want to be all the things that I'm not, I just don't have it all. I just CAN'T have it all and I greatly understand that. Even though I have been working my ass off for something and still can't have it, I still can understand that. I've cried and be hurt and I can understand that. It's hard to accept all the facts but there's nothing I can do. Right?

I am thinking of deleting my Twitter account or if not deleting it, just leave it there. I have noticed that many people today are communicating through texts, emails, chats, twitter, facebook, fs or any social-networking things (writing on blogs is an exception, its a totally different thing...:p) which really messes things up--- misinterpretation, etc. And I have been really spilling out some things and I am even saying STUPID things on it. Even the senseless and useless moves, I am thinking that I will TWITTER this! and all that and that really sucks.
Nevertheless, I've enjoyed twitting.

Ha!

Before I forgot, there are so many things that I have to be thankful to God on this year and here are some of the gazillion blessings:

1. My sister Ken. I've never been happier in my life and I've never experienced being a super ate until my baby sis came. She has been a devilish angel to us. I LOVE HER!!! Though there are tough times, I'm still thankful that she came. I love you Ken.

2. My still unwavering FAITH on Him. This had been a big highlight on my 09! Faith is the only thing I needed the most during the darkest days of my life. I super love God for His greatness and His kindness. It's unparalleled and incomparable like no other, THANK YOU!

3. My academic achievements. In relation to no.2 I never thought that I would still make it to the DL amidst the torturing Chem and some personal problems. FAITH saved me and HE saved me. I am still out-poured with endless gratitude to YOU!

4. My family and friends. Simply because they are there to give their unrelenting support to me. Though sometimes, there are misunderstandings, that's all right. hahaha. You know that I know, that I'm such a pain in the ass. :)

5. And I'm thankful for 2009. Everything that happened on it and I'll not categorize it whether good or bad. I know that God had every reason why did it happen and I'm thankful.

As you may have probably noticed, I have not listed my New Year's Resolution because as much as possible I'm avoiding promising things that ended up such a blast. As much as I want to, I just can't fulfill all the things that I'm promising so better let it be.

All I wish that in this new year, love will still prosper and peace will still prevail. Hoping for a better world!

P.S. There will be a Blue Moon today! :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!!!!

Conquering the Speed of Light

While I'm typing on the keyboard and jotting down my thoughts on this blog, I am actually very sleepy right now. My body has been working and adjusting by now for this semester. Excited? I hope so, and I think I must be excited and be motivated more or less, inspired. I will having 6 major subjects this semester and that is not a joke. I will be having Compa Ana, Physics and Organic Chem with their respective Lab and Lecture Classes to boot them all, and to make things worse 3 consecutive majors were being taken every Tuesdays and Thursdays. So this is the start of a hellish life, once and for all.

This time, I promised myself that I will not commit once more the same mistake and the same procrastination I had last sem. Experiencing the anxiety and the feeling of "doubt" leaves me physically, mentally and most of all emotionally restless. I even experienced nightmares believe it or not. So as much as possible, I'm making most of my time to be very useful and I might say "productive" so as to avoid cramming and piling up of works, which I totally abhor. Time management is the key, I know but it seems that no matter how hard I try it seems not working.

So, a quick recap first on whats-happened-to-me this week. Happy to see friends and classmates again, excited to meet new professors but not yet ready to welcome stress. First week is quite boring because of the same "reading the syllabus" routine. We even got to watch 2012 during our 4-hrs break, will be writing a review on my multiply if I can write on it. hahaha. So where are we? Oh yes, I've got a good news: Our prof in Organic Chem is Doc Sam! Yehey! hahaha. I really don't know, but it seems that lately, there's something magical in Doc Sam that I was even rejoicing the moment he entered the room and I am not sarcastically saying this one. Though at first there's a part on me that half wants doc sam and the other half doesn't want him still I have learned a lot from him and he unconsciously brought back the things that I forgot to do as a college student--- that learning is spontaneous. We also met Doc Figueroa in our Org Chem Lab, Mam Ramirez on Compa Ana Lab, Mam Tabo on Compa Ana Lec and Sir Al Rey on Physics Lab and Lec and I can say that they were all great professors and I hope that my first impression on them last till the end of semester.


Base on my statistical point of view, I will be having a hard time surviving this semester. First of all, though many people don't really know, I have many obligations to fulfill once I got home. I'm not that typical teenager/adult that once got home, eat, study and hit the sack (though sometimes, I do wish that). I have to baby sit my little sister and to tell you frankly, mamamayat kayo sa kanya. I love my sister, I adore her because she is such a cute little angel that was surprisingly given to my family, that's my responsibility as an ate and I have to accept it wholeheartedly. Another thing is, I have an obligation to fulfill on our church. As a pianist on the choir and attending prayers and worship services, I must do my best in order to fulfill the task that I was assigned to do. Now, to set things straight I am not complaining about all these blabberings, in fact I was very thankful that God has given me responsibilities to hone me as a good person. What I'm trying to say is, I wish there are more than 24 hours in a day and I wish that I could devise a way to surmount the speed of light so I can control time, which is obviously impossible. I'm really a retard. I need lots of prayer and hard work to survive each passing day.

Ha! I need to say goodbye for now and God bless all. :)

Too Thankful!

With my recent fretting about my grade in Chem, finally I have come across Doc Sam and I was really surprised the moment I saw my grade. Angels from heavens sing: "Hallelujah". Finally, finally, finally I can sleep well and breath well. There's like a big chunk of bone stuck on your throat that has been removed! What a great feeling. I bring back all of these to Him. Thank you po! I promise that I'll never have that feeling of anxiety ever again next sem. I really hate that kind of feeling.

I have been trying to make myself busy these days but it seems that all that I'm planning to do won't work out because I always ended up sleeping. I sleep like there's no tomorrow. Well anyway, I'm barely not sleeping during school days, its as if sleeping is a luxury that cannot be bought, my body is only asking some sleep. hahaha.

I have been back with editing and blogging! I have been using Adobe Photoshop CS 4 and I'm still have lots of learning and studying to do. If only my laptop could have a bigger space... can someone buy me an external memory drive 500 GB or 1 TB?! hahaha. Or, or I could buy Macbook 1 TB and enjoy my life. Ooooo! I have been really itching to buy one, but I have to wait until med school.

Honestly right now, I have lots of things that I want but it seems that it could only be possible just by imagining it. "If only I could buy this, or buy that..." "If only I have the infinite money...", too many ifs, that's why I'm really trying hard to study so those "ifs" will turn to reality.

Well, I have to be thankful on what I have right now and have to live a better life.

:)

The World As We Know It

Oh, I'm thinking the first line on how to start this one, but looks like I've got one!

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You know what?
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What?
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I'm like a retard, a minuscule tweet on this humongous, filthy piece of land. I know, many people know that.

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Have you ever felt that wanting to rob Bill Gates' mansion or even fake his account? So you could own lots and lots of money? Shame for me, I didn't get his wits. :)

I'm hopeless. I feel hopeless. I'm emo. I'll slight my wrist, draw some weird eyeliner under my eyes and all the emo-things.


They say that its just a strand of hair between sanity and insanity and I've crossed that line!

Do I look like Audrey Hepburn? Or maybe Megan Fox? Or maybe Heidi Klum? Adriana Lima?
Stop all this sh*ty talks.

Sometimes, doing your best is not enough. I want to be Albert Einstein, i want to have his beliefs, his intelligence but it seems that there's something that hinders me from achieving it like some "ethical distress" thingy.

Gosh! I'm emo again. Can't I talk some "happy" things. Um, i've got lots of suitors!!! hahaha. That's crap actually. That's a happy talk for me. hahaha.

I have been a bum... a real certified bum. I'm like sleeping 4 hours and wake up to eat then sleep again. My headaches.

Do I sound like a retard? If I do sound, then stop reading this nonsense, if otherwise. If you could understand this "things" retarded, insane people do, then thank you.

:)

I'm Back!

Whew! Almost 2 months of no blogging, must have been really engrossing myself from too much academics, which I literally have done. I was like a robot that was programmed to do this and that and to tell you honestly that was really tiring, so tiring. This sem has really left an overtly overwhelming part in me, I have experienced all different kinds emotions-- from excited to being depressed (emo! hahaha with Keisha), to being excessively happy, nervous, anxious, eager, LAZY and all that stuff and semester break is just a breath of fresh air and ah! how could I forget Doc Sam, he's the major highlight of this semester, hahaha! I never thought that chemistry would be soo exciting, fun and stressful with him, of course with Doc Sam's help. :))
Now that is not sarcastic as you may see it, I'm serious about it. Doc Sam is an angel in disguise, though many students CAN'T and some many NOT be able to see this one. He wants his students to learn, to stand up on their own and to THINK, to think really hard that all the juices on brain will be sucked out. hahaha. Nevertheless, I just want to thank Doc Sam for all the learnings, though I'm quite not satisfied with my grades on Chem! But anyway, I have a great feeling that he will still be our prof in Org Chem and I really don't know if I'll be elated? hahaha.

Enough of my blabbering about Doc Sam.

Next sem would be a tough one for us, indeed. Below is my schedule and we've reached the maximum units!

PreRegistration Second Semester, SY 2009 - 2010

Advised Subjects

CourseCode SectCode CourseTitle Units From To Days Room CHEM111k S02 ORGANIC CHEMISTRY LEC 3.00 1000 1130 WF PCH105 CHEM111Lk S02 ORGANIC CHEMISTRY LAB 2.00 1300 1600 TH PCH305/306 FILI103c S02 MASINING NA PAGPAPAHAYAG 3.00 830 1000 WF PCH105 PHED104 S13 TEAM SPORTS 2.00 1300 1500 M ULS PHYS103a S02 MECHANICS AND HEAT LEC 3.00 1300 1600 F PCH106 PHYS103La S02 MECHANICS AND HEAT LAB 1.00 700 1000 M PCH107/108 REED144 S13 SPIRITUALITY OF SOCIAL TRANSFORMATION 3.00 1600 1730 WF PCH105 SOSC106 S11 PHILIPPINE GOVERNMENT & NEW CONSTITUTION 3.00 1600 1730 TH COS102 ZOOL111b S01 COMPARATIVE ANATOMY OF VERTEBRATES LEC 3.00 1000 1130 TH COS102 ZOOL111Lb S01 COMPARATIVE ANATOMY OF VERTEBRATES LAB 2.00 700 1000 TH PCH204/205

Total Units: 25.0 Maximum Units Allowed: 25.00

Cancelled - Subject Cancelled (Prerequisite subject failed or subject already taken)

Available - Subject Available

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Though I am so looking forward on this one, I still have an angst in terms of my academic status. I still really don't know if I am capable to excelling on this one. I hope, I hope with God's help that I would still be able to excel. Hoo! Anyways, if ever I would not be able to pursue med, I'll be jumping off the clip and be like Bella, waiting for Edward or Jacob or some hot stuff out there to save me and I'll marry him, blah blah blah. hahaha. Now, that would be nice. =)

No! I won't let myself befallen once again into procrastination and excessive laziness. I have done with I have been through with the past and the consequences at stake are too much, I won't let that happen again. God has given me ONE more chance not to commit the "same mistake" I have done before and I humbly and deeply thank Him for that, He's really good.

Ah! I'll promise to make this semester break productive.

1. Read as much as I want! Books! Books! Books! I can't live without them!

2. Driving Lessons! Finally.

3. Clean my room. My room is like a forest where all different forms of life are already accumulating.

4. Sleep! Is there anything more divine?

5. Food, ahh!

6. Movies, I really feel so movie deprived.

7. Be more active in church. =))

8. PIANO!!!! I haven't really been able to touch the keys since who-knows-when and I'm going back to my old pieces.

9. And anything that I could think of...

Thank you and it's nice to be back. :)

Just a Moment

I need to take a break. I am becoming too cynical and pessimistic about things lately. I am lately becoming bitter and afflictive more like of a "What the f*ck do you care?!", something like that and it sounds bad. hahaha. I have been burying myself lately to Ecology and Chem books. I have been working pre-labs and postlabs non-stop and even though I don't have any works to do, I still think of doing something because there's something in me that tells that I should do something and to tell you quite frankly, that's really wierd. I am very much concern with my grades right now because I can't afford to fail at any subject. But looking at what's happening right now, the more I "try" the harder it gets for me to be my best and that really sucks.

I am miss reading books, having a good movie to watch or just spending time with myself. I miss RELAXING. It seems that I need to buy that word "relaxing". I have at least to balance my daily consumption of those freaking so-called "knowledge". Being too scientific gives leaves you to be a total stranger to this world, so I need to have some good literary things to refresh my significance in this world. Haaah! I need to pamper myself with a good book, but how on Pete's sake can I do that? When in fact, I don't have the time to finish reading my major subjects' books. Now that freakin' frustrating.

Well, at least here's blogging, a convenient way to channel my ramblings and mumblings. School is so tiring.