UP!!!!

First and foremost, I want to shout and congratulate Kath for passing UP!!!!!!!! Yehey!!!! Clap your hands, bow and hail her!!!!! Ang galing ni Kath!!!!! I heard her scream at the corridor and that's the time I've realized that the entrance exam result at UP has been released and Kath was one of them!!!! ang galing talaga. Now, UP!!!! is my ultimate goal, I have to pass it! And i am starting to get nervous, i will pray ALOT!!!! as in ALOT!!!! naku, kinakabahan na talaga ako promise!
My dad wants me to pass UP, my mom also but me? I am desperate! hehe...not really desperate, I just want to go to a nice university when I turn to college because I want to get job easier as much as possible. I felt really happy for Kath, because all the hard worked have been paid off! If I were you Kath, I will celebrate!!!! Yipee!!!1 I am still really happy for her...!

Now, it's my turn. This year, I will be fourth! and I promise that I will do my best in my review for college!!!!! ULTIMATE GOAL: UNIVERSITY OF THE PHILIPPINES!

Pure as White

I have a new skin...again! It seems that I will not have any satisfaction on my blog skins, but anyways, I like my new skin better than the other because it is white...so clean, simple, neat and yet still elegant, that's what I like abou the color white. Honestly, I am not a fan of black color, actually black is not a color, it is the absence of light, so I don't consider black as a color. Anyways, tomorrow will be our 3rd periodic exam...at last! after too many delays, periodic exam finally resumes....! and after that is our Intramurals! Last year, I think we didn't have that intramurals....I just don't remember.

So, what's happening in my life today? I almost caught a fever, my tonsils aches and my cough is somewhat getting worse, and I hate it! Why on Earth, that this stupid cold gets when an important event will happen, like periodic and the intramurals, can I get sick when normal shool days? But, to tell you, getting sick when studying in Masci is hard and stressful because 1 day of absence you will miss the hardest and worst lecture in the planet and it's very hard to cope up. So, I have no choice but to take care of my health, but I still don't know how to take care of my health will I'm studying at Masci because Masci gives me diseases, makes me prone to heart disease because of stress. Don't they ever think about that? They are a Science high school! hehe...Too much complaining I think, I should go back and dig in my books again and study! Aja!

School year 2006-2007 will end so soon, and I am very excited at vacation...!

A Little Dash of Faith and Hope

Have you ever experienced that you're losing hope and the last minute in your life, God will make a way to help you and cope up with it? I do experienced it...and it's today! Me and Kath thought that we weren't be able to make it at the "ensayo" pero God is still good and I really love Him! He always makes a way for us to praise Him, even at the last second that we're losing hope that we can make it, though we are bit late but still the important thing is that we "try" and by trying we succeed. I am happy and glad that we were able to make it. Like what the quote said "The true failure is when you stop trying". It's all about having enough faith and hope to Him for us to receive the true blessings of God. If there's anything that I will not sacrifice, it is being a "mang-aawit". In that position, I felt that God is alive and He loves the people who follow Him, in that state, I felt that I am so lucky and blessed because I have a God, whom I can trust and pray into. I now realized that He allow us to experience that excitement and fear because He tested our faith to Him. I know for myself that even though sometimes, I am so sick of my life because of the overdose hardship that i've experienced, I never lose faith, even out of 100% only 1% still remains in my heart and that will add a 99% when I pray to Him!

I just want Him to know that I am thankful for all of these, I didn't count these as a curse or unluckiness, rather a blessing that rare people encountered in their lives, my feelings are not described really well, but I really want to thank Him! He is good, He is powerful!

If there's only one power I wish I could possess, that is the ability to stop time and I know I can achieve. haha...

Kath, I hope that you have a wonderful experience!

Thank you very much GOd! I love You!

If

My day yesterday was a bit depressing, I just don't know, why do I get so emotional all of a sudden, maybe...just maybe....uhm...should I say it publicly? Oh..never mind...just maybe that's the reason why. So I get emotional and I get really topakin..I hate this feeling. While we're helding our English class and reciting the poem "If" by Rudyard Kipling, I was touched and I was a bit emotional, muntik na akong umiyak, well I'm starting to like poetry, much better than I thought, in poetry you can express even your deepest thought, who cares if you are the only person who can understand it? It's yours, it is your life. When I am reading poetry, I feel so related into it, I feel that the author understands my feelings, that he/she have "felt" the same way I felt life as it is. But they are geniuses because they have the ability to express those thoughts and feelings into an artistic and creative way, unlike me, I don't like showing my feelings that much. When people ask "Are you ok?"...I replied "Oo naman, ang saya ko nga eh". But deep inside, problems are accumulating and I want to hide it because I don't want to affect other people of my dramatic life.hahaha..

If
by Rudyard Kipling
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

While I am reading Reader's Digest yesterday at school, I've read an article about stress, that stress can induce heart attack and that people should relax and not be too hard on their selves. I know, you know what I mean. People don't live just to kill themselves without knowing it! Student like me! I think I am killing myself without any notice! Because i am so stressed. Example, right at this moment, it is 1:00 am and I am still up, because my beloved school just can't stop burdening us with loads and loadsssssss...of assignments and test! But still I am thankful that I survive each day with strength and faith!

Anyways, I don't want to kill myself so I will just jump into my bed right now, closed my History book and sleep...because later on...I will wake up AGAIN! at 5:00! Goodluck to me during class hours! Hope that Mr. Sandman will not make me feel sleepy! Gudmorning! Kung di na kaya ako matulog? Joke Lang! ano ako, baliw?

I need Some Sleep

I need some sleep, that's what I want, my eyebags are getting bigger and bigger. It seems that i don't get much too sleep because I'm thinking of so many stuffs. Hehe...Tomorrow, we will have a test in Chemistry, and I'm a bit unprepared because the past lessons are not that easy. Chemistry is my favorite subject, maybe because Mam Coco is great, she loves chem and she shares that passion with her students, which in return motivated to study her subject. Chemistry is a serious subject that if not given further attention you will not be able to pass this subject, but with the help of Ms. Coco, chemisty became easier and understandable. From balancing an equation to predicting a certain element, it's hard but students can withstand it.
I said to myself that Chemistry is my second choice aside from Biology, because I love chemistry and Biology, but my first choice was Biology originally.I wish Biotechnology will be much easier at our school...haha... So why do I lack sleep?
It's because....of the usual overloading of assignments, projects to be passed, test, long test, reports, research proposal (again!), physics project which is very out of this world and tonight, I am studying Chemistry.

Another factor for lacking of sleep was, literally I have no rest, school hours ended to 6 pm and I have to rush to get on time on our pagsamba, it is so hard and tiring but I have to do my duty to fulfill my new year's resolution and my promise to Him. I always look haggard and tense when Wednesday and Thursday comes, looks like i'm always in a hurry, but lately I get used to it and treat it as a normal day.

So this song if for me and all of the people who lack sleep...hahaha.
I Need Some Sleep
The Eels
I need some sleep
It can't go on like this
I tried counting sheep
But there's one I always miss
Everyone says I'm getting down too low
Everyone says you just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go

I need some sleep
Time to put the old horse down
I'm in too deep
And the wheels keep spinning 'round
Everyone says I'm getting' down too low
Everyone says you just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go

You just gotta let it go

Goodnight humans. ZzZzZzZzZzZz...