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Summer Addiction

Yes, in between baby sitting I still find time to enjoy my summer, at the least of it. Baby sitting is "sometimes" fun but it gives me a greater amount of pain in the ass. It so happen that I only read 2 novels this summer. I'm such a loser. Actually its 3 but I don't include American Gods. The thing is, I end up snoozing every time a read a book, either it is I'm really sleepy or the book is boring so its up for you to judge. Anyway, I am playing this game on my cellphone called 3D Rally its kinda like a racing game and I'm so addicted to it. I can't sleep! I'm serious. LOL. I'm now like a raccoon. But, at last! I have unlocked all of its level and I'm have gone to rehab already so I'm through with my addiction. LOL. So besides playing a cp game, I'm watching America's Next Top Model. I just love this show but I don't much like Tyra. Sorry Tyra fans. I love the shoots, the clothes, the models and the catfights! Rawrr! LOL. I just love watching them saying curses to each other. This cycle, I'm betting for Raina Hein. See pictures below:

I love her eyes

I'm so gay. LOL. Besides Raina, I'm drooling for Ian Somerhalder. The guy in Lost and Vampire Diaries and a Gucci, Guess model. Name them all. HOT! Whew! He has that dreamy eyes that melts every woman's heart and the body! Whew! Drooling.

I love men in suits. Especially when its IAN!

Ok! I'm officially drooling.

Ian somehow also resemble Chace Crawford, my other boyfriend. LOL. Can I have a guy like Ian? LOL. He's too irresistible. Made to perfection.

So, you can say that my summer addiction is about obsessing to men and women. LOL. I promise to read some academic related stuff this summer.I have read some introductory stuff about Histology but I still haven't opened my book in Biochem and I still have no freaking idea about my class on physics. I just can't study especially in this kind of heat.

I'm planning to watch Vampire Diaries. Looks waaayyyy better than Twilight. True Blood is also good but its rated not for teens. Vampires are in, aren't they? Well, I don't care, as long as they're hot.

Teehee

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Love lots,
Kim

ELECTION 2010!

5 days before the national election and I have to say I'm quite excited cause I'll be voting now. The truth is, politics is the least of my concern. I really don't care much about it because besides the fact that it is a downright dirty job, its lame, ok?! Ang yabang ko. hehe.

Many Filipinos are surely asking themselves: "May pag-asa pa kaya ang Pilipinas na makabangon?". I have been asking myself the same question also and as far as I can see, Philippines need a total "make-over". We need to start from scratch. Iba kasi ang mindset nating mga Pilipino compared to other nations. Yes, we can blame all those foreigner that invaded our lands- Spaniards, Americans, Japan. A big mention to Spain who has greatly contributed to what we are-- our culture, our norms, etc. Idagdag rin natin ang mga kano. Have you ever consider, what if Philippines is not Philippines? I mean, are we going to be in this state if we were not conquered in the past? Sure maraming nagawa ang pananakop sa atin ng mga Kastila at Amerikano, there's the good side in it but as I can see it now, mas nakikita ang cons. Filipinos are becoming less and less patriotic and nationalistic and that's exactly what we need. Look at China. Heavens, Chinese love for their country is beyond greatness. They could die for it. What about us? Could we die for this country? In Thailand, they have this golden statue that could be displayed in public but mind you, it will not be stolen. How about the Filipinos? Makakita lang ng kahit statwang gawa sa tanso, kinabukasan gone like the wind. Yes, that's us. I have to admit, I have no sense of nationalism and patriotism and the truth is if ever I'll be given a chance to swap citizenship I'll be glad to do so, except on notorious countries of course. Its just then that I've come to realize the importance of our culture. We must preserve it. We must preserve the "good" things that we have. Take for example the Metropolitan Theater located in Lawton, Manila. Metropolitan theater s an art deco building designed by the Filipino architect Juan M. de Guzman Arellano, and inaugurated on December 10, 1931, with a capacity of 1670 (846 orchestra, 116 in loge, and 708 in balcony). Credits to Wiki for that.

Met Theater (Before)

Met Theater (After) *ang galing talaga*

It used to be so classy and grand, now vandalism are all over. It needs to be revive. Its an artifact, a structure with historical value that we need to preserve but why do we destroy such thing? Its sad but true. Ganyan natin kamahal ang Pilipinas. We are constantly building large infrastructures, cutting down trees for investors to come yet we are not aware that we destroying the beauty that we had once. I'm sure Rizal, Bonifacio or many of our martyr would be really pissed off if they could see our situation right now. They would surely come back from the grave.

Now I'm saying this not as an activist or an advocate or what. I feel pity for our country, for us Filipinos. We are too degraded and discriminated by other nations. We need to revive our grandeur and our spark. We had that once. I don't know if its too late but we have to work now.

On May 10, 2010 your votes will determine the future of this country. We need a "decent" leader because all our leaders are "crazy".

On May 10, go out and vote. Vote wisely.

:)

Coco Chanel and Nine

So, lately I was very addicted in watching movies. This is one of the things I should have accomplish in doing perfectly this summer. Watch as many movies as I can. YEBA! So last night I convinced myself that I'm going to watch "Nine" because Daniel Day Lewis is in the movie. Though I already had a premonition that this movie will be going to be a super-big-size "flop", I still tried it on. And I was right. The movie is a big failure. It doesn't brought the excitement that I want instead it was draggy and too overrated. I hate Kate Hudson in this movie (the fact is, I hate her in all her movies), doing the stripper dance all over just didn't fit her. Its like imagining me, doing a sexy, stripper thing which is gross, right? Penelope Cruz was hot but she doesn't really portray that "hotness". While the rest, I have no idea what they were doing. I decided to watch other film last night, cause I was getting really bored. All those fancy-stripper dance just doesn't work for me, at least.

So, Coco Chanel saved my night. I really have no idea of Chanel's past life until I watched this movie. An ambitious, young lady from France who dreams of becoming an actress instead becoming this fashion icon whom celebrated and fancied by the era today. Such an inspiring story from rags to riches and a very tragic love life, I must say. Coco says ..."I never intend to marry anyone". So, she never did but at least she still leaves the legacy of her style. Audrey Tautou can act! Heavens! I thought she was Coco resurrected. I love her in this movie. I was planning to see Amelie. His leading men are all good and sexy and they speak French, which is so cool. I have never really a big fan of high class fashion, not that I don't adore them or fancy them its just that dreaming of those 10,000 bucks clothes just won't let me even dare to think about it. They are way, way too expensive. I wonder why they have increased the marketing at such a high markings? Coco Chanel is not a socialite for pete's sake! Make her clothes, shoes, hats and bags more affordable! Or maybe, I should try audition in "Nine" and do some strippy dance to make into Hollywood and do porn! Then, I'll be able to buy some Chanel dresses. Hahaha. Just kidding, of course.

Adam

Let me give you a brief summary of the movie. No spoilers, don't

worry. Adam. So this movie is about love, mainly, I think. But its not your typical love plot that end up in a seemingly predictable way. Its about Adam played by Hugh Dancy, who has an Aspeger Syndrome, a kind of autism that mainly have problem dealing and socializing with other people and stuff. His father died so the challenge is for him to survive his seemingly depleting life- getting fired from his job, etc. Until he met Beth played by Rose Byrne, a pre-school teacher. The love story is very cute, though. :)

And all I can say is WOW. This movie end me up crying. Hugh Dancy, my new man by the way, is so perfect in this movie that if I were be able to do so, I give him an Academy Award. He's so hot and cute at the same time, playing the Aspergery guy but still retains his hotness. Don't you like that? Ok, ok. I'm not doing a review about Hugh Dancy, I am quite aware of that. But who can resist his charm? I hate Claire Danes. Anyway, the movie is so good, other than the fact that its a love story, it tells about the authenticity of life. The imperfections, the flaws and the bad things that life can offer you. This is not a feel good movie, actually. I don't feel good at the end of watching it but there's this feeling of lightness in me. A refreshing feeling. Its very unfathomable, its the just the feeling of "lightness".

As for anyone who would want to watch Adam. I highly recommend this movie. Enjoy!

Baby-Sitting

I have been baby sitting for almost 2 weeks now. Almost, because its Friday today. Mind you, baby sitting is not an easy task especially when the one you're baby sitting is as murderous as my little sister. Hahaha. That may exaggerate things a little bit but its quite true, though. Ah! For almost 2 weeks I am now an expert when it comes to nursery rhymes and songs. I have known they already by heart that I could recite, sing with a matching dance interpretation. The songs are stuck in my head that I could actually sing them while I'm sleeping. Baby-sitting is fun. Yeah! Fun, in the sense that I should clean up poos, learn to change diapers, play basketball, get myself downright dirty, eat jelly aces, "un"- clutter "cluttered" things, stuff like that. There are times I lose my patience and get really temperamental, added the heat that is barely tolerable.

While baby-sitting, it made think of things lately. On what might happen this incoming school year. Now that I'm in 3rd year college, not long enough, I'll be graduating with Latin Honor (this would be lovely), we'll be going somewhere outside the country, I'll have a car (yeah, I know how to drive already =) and I'll be going to MED SCHOOL! That's it. Working to be a doctor, what could be more fulfilling than that? But oh! I'm aware of what should I have to go through. I'm aware of the fact that graduating with Latin Honor would really test my ability and most especially my faith. I have been very fortunate to gather some useful information from my reliable college friends. They warned me to be careful in Histology. Huhu, and honestly I'm already fidgetting about it. But I'm quite sick and tired of worrying, so the best thing that I could possibly do is to expect the worse, do my ultimate best and have FAITH!

So I guess, this sums it up. Till next time. :)

Cerebral Palsy

I have been doing this research about Cerebral Palsy for our forum about birth defects and gosh, I am must say I am quite overwhelmed and taken aback by this neurological disease.

Cerebral Palsy is a persistent disorder caused by an abnormality in the brain. It can occur before the time of birth which is the major cause. It can likewise be due during the time that the baby is in the mother's womb, when the brain doesn't develop normally or an infection or trauma has occurred while the child is developing in the womb. Minor causes are problems during the time of delivering the baby which is very unusual and uncommon. Those who suffer from this disorder are children born prematurely and the fact is that, 40% of children with cerebral palsy are born prematurely. Signs and symptoms of CP are problems in movement, slurry speeches, spinal curvature, learning disabilities, etc. The cerebellum is the part of the brain that controls most of our main movement and it is the part of the brain that was being attacked by Cerebral Palsy.

So, I was doing some research. I stumble upon this video from youtube. Her name is Rachel Esdaille and has cerebral palsy. But it doesn't end on that, she is an English major, a writer and has already published her novel entitled: "Pictures of Silver". This girl is just amazing. I actually had tears while watching this video. Try to watch it:






"We all have GREATNESS in us". That's just bring me to tears.

Our brain is one of a hell of work of art. Its a piece of round, jelly like, greenish substance inside our head yet its power and greatness is beyond compare. I love how beautiful our brains our that it can thrust us into different directions and unmeasurable capabilities. Truly, God is a genius.

BURST!

For Pete's sake, I'm not planning to turn into some kind of a dork or even a mad scientist for me to know all this sickening things!

BLAH!

Can't I just focus on what I like?

My mind's capacity has seemingly reached its limit and I think I can't bear it no more. I just CAN'T focus anymore.

Holy ****!

I feel like jumping off a cliff.

I'm itching for SUMMER!

Time-Out

My mind really need some break now. I have reading and reading and reading. Let's talk about my fondness in photography. I have been liking photography since everyone liked it :p. The only sad part is, I still can't own a DSLR, preferably Canon and really I don't care if its the latest or not, all I want is to have one. And since I am still a student who tragically still "depend" on my parents for money, I still won't be able to collect 80k even if I don't eat for the rest of the year. Its just too expensive and needs a downright consequences. Maybe I have to kwatro all my subjects? Nah! I think it will not still work-out, hahaha. My love for photography has been growing and growing through time. I love taking priceless moments, I love how photography captures the most captivating part in nature, people, places, etc. It does not need to speak, everything in the picture says it all. It has the power to capture every hearts and souls of people and I think that's the beauty of photography. I have been really enthusiast lately, of course with the aid of my trusted digicam. But still I want to upgrade it. I still do believe in MIRACLES! DSLR!!!!

Here are some photos that I've taken and also edited by yours truly

Hocus Focus

I have been contemplating really hard for the past few weeks. As usual, I have been put under tremendous amount of stress and every end of the day I am so very thankful to God because He let me get through the whole day. I have been really blessed, really blessed. I have once again been at the Dean's List and got a full scholarship this semester. The thought that I could help my family financially at least lifts me up and gives me a thought that they could be proud of me. Add up that my brother, Kokoy, passed the UPCAT exams. People say that I bear grudges over him and it is quite the contrary, actually. I am so proud of my brother, at least he didn't made the BIGGEST mistake that I have done, hahaha. Oh! Enough of talks about UP. I have been living in regrets for almost I can remember and no matter what I do, I know that UP is not meant for me. I have been studying 2 years now at DLSU-D and I just have to accept the fact that my biggest dream in studying at UP is now as bleak as possible. All that I can do is do my best to achieve my dreams, of course with the help and guidance of the Lord, focus and focus.

Though sometimes, FAILURE=KIM. Sometimes, I feel that I was born to be a complete failure and laughing stock. Have anyone felt that? That you're fed up of trying and sick of motivating and encouraging yourself? I have been honed and molded as a really different human being, from my thoughts to my beliefs, I am completely honest that I am "out-of-this-world". But sometimes, I really need to get along to folks that really don't get me. Get it? Yeah, its complicated. I have to adapt to different climatic changes around me. The surrounding in Masci is totally different from the surrounding in DLSU-D. Yes, I know that that's a totally different world. But, let me tell you, being in Masci means a lot of being in college--competitive, etc. OH! How I wish I could undo things in my life and get them straight the way I want them to be. How I wish I CHOOSE my FRIENDS right.

As you may have notice, I still can't move on. I have been living a totally different life now, but I still can't move on from the past. I haunts me, actually. It haunts me to the very core. I need life, I need opportunities. I want to develop as a total human person and be active in this world. I hate mediocrity but I, myself, is a complete mediocre. Is there anything worse than that? I need peace of mind, I need calmness and I need love.

Blank

My ipod is finally back! I'm so filled with happiness.

Suppose to be studying some lessons in Compa Ana Lec instead I can't help but to spend my time here blabbering stupid things.

Have you ever felt that you are such a failure? That you better off dead than to be alive.

How I wish....

And the truth is...

I don't give a sh*t. If people don't like me, if they "thought" that some kind of saint is more cool then I don't give a damn. The hell I care.


Just sayin'.

My Usual Cramming

I really miss my Ipod now. Well, you see, long time ago I lost my ipod video tragically. I became so depressed at that moment that I really felt a lost inside me. I know, I know I am a drama-queen but call me that or whatsoever, I really felt incomplete. That Ipod has been with me through tough times, comforting me when I needed one then out of the blue some psycho would just snatch it?!

Well, paving my way towards purchasing another Ipod is a tremendous job to be done. I need to work extra extra hard on persuading my parents and alas I've done it. They've graciously bought me a 120 Gb Ipod Classic (Black) and I'm loving it.

Well, here comes the sad part on it. Less than I think 6 months of purchasing it, a line right through the LCD seems to be appearing and I think that in time it will grow as big that it can cover the whole LCD, I was devastated! I googled and learned that some kind of pixelation has happened and I rushed my Ipod as soon as possible to the nearest Power Mac Center for diagnosis. And I still haven't got news from it. I miss it badly. :( I hope the they would replace it will a newer one so as to avoid further damage. I also promised myself that though its leather cover is quite costly (1200php) I'm really going to buy it.

Too much lamenting for my Ipod.

I want an extended holiday vacation. Besides I still want to do things I planned but still haven't done it, I also needed more time on studying! Crap!