Amnesia

1 Peter 3-3:4

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment,
such as braided hair and waring of gold jewelry and fine clothes.
Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty
of a gentle and quiet spirit,
which is of great worth in God's spirit.
We had a discussion about mental health in Health for the past few days, and gawd! I am so into it, maybe i'm having relations with it. haha...being baliw! Well, Glazy narrated that she had an amnesia, a quite weird amnesia, she said that she had an amnesia on a person that is so close to her. Her bestfried died a long time ago, due to her depression according to her, she had an amnesia, but only to her bestfried. It is so cool, an amnesia only on a "certain" thing, the hard part about that is that of all the things that you will be forgotten off, why would it be the very important person who has been a part of your life. Oh well! I said to myself, if ever I experienced Glazy's, I would rather forget everything except MATH!!!! haha...I've been having sleepless nights because of math and having an amnesia is not an excuse on it. I won't let amnesia, make me back again to basics. haha...Just joking.

We've done some cooking thing on HE this morning and it was quite fun except on the part when we are scolded by Mam San Jose because we were so late at her period.

I am so into myself right now, because i've noticed that in these past few days, I've been having a moment when I think really deep, being silent has dominated my times since then, and I don't know why... maybe because of the things that happen to me especially about friends, in school and in church. In church, I am really feeling uncomfortable, I just don't know, maybe it's natural because it's not everytime that you feel ok with your friends. All I can say that it is so unfair. You will not really receive the same amount of caring and understanding that you give for that person and don't expect that they will give the "same" or "greater" amount of caring and understanding that you have given, because people are not like that. You will be hurt no matter what, and I learned that you must accept to be hurt and to be loved. It's just really unfair because I felt that "my friend" treats my "other friend" more important than I do, that is in fact, we shared many things already. I am really hurt. And it's ok to be hurt because you are becoming closer to God. Having a heart to heart talk with Him.

By the way, UpCat is coming so close!!!! It's July 26 and my test will be on August 4, 12:30 pm at Malcolm hall (College of Law) UP Diliman. I'm really nervous, and like all Iglesia ni Cristo, if ever I have things that I want to do, I want to consult everything to God. So in short, nagpapanata na ako. But I have to work hard for that, and we have a refreshing course this Saturday at Academic One, and I have to be better on it because I am so disappointed about...well I don't hae to say this.

Well it's half past midnight and I just want to stop by at my blog to jot down things. Next time ulit!

Hi!

So kumusta naman ako? Ciguro kala niyo patay na ako, cause I have not been blogging since like more than 10 years...Gawd! namis ko ang blog at heto nanaman ako nagnanakaw sa kulang kong oras upang makapag-blog...Ang busy busy na! Grabe! at take not 4th year na ako! Busy in studies especially busy in studying for UpCat...actually, hindi pa ako ready kasi hindi pa ako masyadong nakakpagreview...Besides Up kumuha ako form sa Ateneo, nagbabakasakali lang, pero hindi ako papasok don, masyadong maluho ang pamumuhay, baka mamulubi at tumira na lang kami sa styrofoam, mantakin mo banaman yung form eh 500 pesos na! Form palang my bayad na eh pano kung doon na ako nag-aral! hehe...Bat nga ba ako nagrereklamo? sino bang my sabi na mag-aral ako don? ah basta, kelangan kong makapasa sa UP! gO lang!

Kumusta naman ang 4th year life ko? well ok naman, masaya naman kahit papano ang Roentgen, daming baliw at loko-loko. Sa mga teachers? Da best. Magagaling ang mga teachers namin ngayong 4th year, favorite ko si Mam Correa ng English at mam D. ng Filipino, ang saya talaga. Pero hindi ko aakalaing palagi akong tulog sa Math namin...grabe talaga tuwing math na lang...twing math na lang tulog ang mga senses ko, parang nanghehele si Mam, Math na yon ha? Grabe talaga, tulog ako palagi kaya naman palagi akong kulelat sa test...haha! Pero I'm trying not to sleep naman, just trying.

Well, I am striving to be a better person now...sana mastrive kong mabuti. Pero may mga elemento paring sadyang nagpapasama ng araw ko, mapaschool o kaya dito...grabe talaga pero kaya ko to... haiy naku...

Absent ako ngayon...tapos bukas review lang kami whole day para sa NCAE...cge bye na..

A Long Hibernation

Currently Listening to: Daisukidayo- Ai Otsuka
My shifting on music genre is quite complicated and quite influenced by people I am with. From listening to classical music, which was my main specialty because playing classical piano is a must, from listening to alternative rock which Dawnavie always insist me to download an alt song everytime we meet at school, on listening to J-pop and K-pop because of Majo, on listening to OPM musics because of Elaine and other things like that. But it's great because I am able to find and explore different kinds of music, not just sticking only on one type. I thought that I will hate alternative rock but I was very wrong. My playlist is dominated with alternative rock and easy listening songs, which really fits all my mood, from happy to sad, from jolly to melancholy. haha.
Maybe you're wondering what took me so long to update my blog. Well I am here already typing all the things that happened to me since I have my last update. At first, the sched of section Roentgen is a blast! I hate it! While other 4th year section are on their way home, here we are still at school because we have classes until 6pm! Come on man! 7 am to 6pm? I thought that I will escape that unfortunate thing because that was like my sched on my 3rd year and still the same thing will happen to me this 4th year. Hmp...Masci really likes to see me having hard time! haha...But I think it's good for now, because we already have a 5 o clock dismissal. We will go home during Thursdays. Why is it an advantage to me? Because I will not anymore cram about choir's practice in the church. At least I will be able to ride the bus without any cramness because I'll tell you, if ever I have a sickness like nervous breakdown, maybe I am dead long time ago. Of all the nervousness I've encountered, man, I must be dead. Nervous everytime I go to school, nervous in having a recital, nervous in everything. So good thing I don't have any nervous breakdowns...haha

How about that special feeling? Remember last post I have said that I am feeling a strange feeling? haha...it's just a stupid feeling, and everytime I remember how stupid it was I want to laugh to death so hard...haha...I am wrong...definitely wrong...Muntik na ako doon...haha..but I survive...I didn't fall! haha...It's hard to fall, you end up crying. So it's just stupidity...Never mind that post.

I am having a hard time comprehending those sickly finding the equation for the 3 bisector angle in Analytic Geometry...it's math you know?! hahaha...Looks like my mind is always asleep everytime I step foot at M21 Class: Analytic Geom Teacher: ***. **** Time: 1:00-2:00pm (Wow! Sarap matulog). Never mind the teacher, it just that I really have to drink a gallon of coffee just to not fall asleep in that class, the teacher is good, but there's something wrong. it is not that she is talking to the black board but the time is really wrong. I really hoped that major subjects will be at morning schedule, so our minds will be fresh. haizzz.... But I will not give up math! I will fight till the end!!!! haha...!!!! I dare you math!!!!
hehe...sana nga magawa ko yan.

I was so happy yesterday because even though I got a very low score in math, Carlota is there to cheer me up...She gave a portrait in Paris! haha...It's really cute. The camera is out of battery so maybe the picture will be posted next time. I've always dreamed myself walking through the streets of Paris, just to walk in Paris will make me the happiest person ever lived! It's so touching because Carlota remembered me haha...Aral tayo French sa summer ha?

Life is really tough always, there's nothing perfect. Dana and I have a conversation, knowing somethings about her, and I realized how fortunate and lucky i am, not just she was not lucky, but I've realized that complaining about things that happen to me is bad because, I am not the one who really suffered a lot. I always say why my life is cruel.... But realizing those things, makes me feel bad.

Paris in Jail

Currently Listening:I don't need a Man- PCD

Haha...This music video is so funny. She really looks like Paris Hilton, and I like it when the cop was chasing after her...haha!

Makes Me Wonder

Currently Listening: What Makes you Stay-Deana Carter
A week of haggardousness, yesterday my stomach was aching so hard...my ulcer is getting worse...haha. Masci held a Club Fair today, though was not so grand, I think it's first time that Masci held such thing. I joined the Techno Club, the Research Club, the Nihonggo Club. I have stamps on my arms to verify that I am now a member of the club, Christine just stamped me as a member of the Pion Club (Physics) because Pion Club is a desserted place....haha.

What makes me wonder is that, I am not sure about my feelings...I can't say that I am falling, but I can also say that I am falling...Falling for what? I dunno! It's complicated right now...To whom am I falling? I do not know also! When am I falling? That I know... I am falling sooner or later. A feeling that makes you wonder.